xoxo

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Flu pills & quilt blankets

I
- have been to the gym on Friday with Hweeyee
- fell sick on Saturday with Flu and itchy throat
- got weaker on Sunday with super runny nose
- ushered on Sunday
- did a bit of my wire hand on Sunday in hope to complete it but no
- skipped school on Monday
- went to the clinic on Monday
- slept in late on Monday
- took flu pills
- watched shows and completed them
- went Compasspoint with Elyn
- had good talk with Elyn
- think Elyn has strong immune system not to catch my germs
- missed school with no guilt on Monday as I have MC
- missed school today with slight guilt cos' I have no MC to cover me anymore
- think school is waste of time today with just 2 lessons
- feel that then again, Mary's class could be impt and Jane might brief on review
- must check with classmates for updates
- will complete my wire hand by today, i think?
- slept in late today too
- am going to take my medication soon
- miss my classmates... have not seen them since like Thursday after lunch at Macs
( and chong Ivan and Questal since last Friday )
- feel greasy. yucks
- am going tanning tomorrow with my weak and flabby body :\
- tanning with Van, Caryn and Zelia :D
- currently have no plans for Thursday yet, school work?
- might celebrate birthday early on Friday
- want to eat strawberry shortcake
- feel like my throat damn dry
- want to eat Jagabee despite of my horrible throat
- am going to eat some durian thingy my mom asked if i wanna
( and she can still say "but you heaty leh, you wanna eat?" duhz, i would surely eat it. )
- want a doggie ( say chow chow, terrier, shitzhu? ) but i know mom will NEVER allow
- WANT TO WATCH MAMAMIA
- am already eating the durian (pancake/crepe) now :D real durians woo lala.
- think later i cannot talk already, no voice.
- dont know what to say anymore

i thank God today that
- i am in the most amazing church
- i am experiencing His presence so oftenly
- my cousin and fx is released from army to civil life for a few days now

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

you and i, who else?

Loads of thoughts this noon.
About people and relationships.

I watched Singapore Dream to weehours today, and slept in.
Stayed home the whole day and prep for my announcements.
Did some pointers for my essay and I'll complete them tomorrow night.
I mean I have to, its due on Friday.

1001 projects to be completed and I dont seem to feel anxious, YET.
I am very lazy and this is bad.

Xinjie is the best, i just bought a new thumbdrive and now i lost it
I am flipping through all my stuff to find it now.
zzzzz

Okay coolios just found it with my perfume and fake eyelashes and whatever.
Talking about my fake eyelashes, I got them and didnt put them at all. HAHA
Too troublesome luh.

I feel like eating again and I think I'll go cook meegoreng.
I would probably turn in early today.
Long long day tomorrow.

Goodnight

and i thank God today that

I have a very nice quilt heart designed covered blanket that i love so much
I have a dimple
I have been fighting and struggling and its better than giving up

I am thinking of friends.
Goodnight.

This is me, with low possibility to look like this one day.
Lawyer?

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

breathe and live a day

hello world, i slept in late today cos' i had horrible terrible migraine and ended up not going school for the make up 2D and IS.
I hope i didnt miss out too much for school.

Headed out in the evening to eat waffles with Eli & Mich and later hung around with Eli to kill time before heading to the airport at 9+pm to send Lorraine off to Korea.

Last night I had a time of self-reflection.
I really would like to hear honest opinions (:
Cos' I've heard from a couple of people about how i am this way and how it is a good yet bad issue.

Seriously, am I too noisy?
Haha, or the way I speak, is it too loud or whatever?
Or do I act alot like a boy so much so that alot of guys oftenly treat me like one?

Also, I had thoughts about how people are being true to themselves and how open are different people to show their real self to people around them.
How real are you?
Well, my notion is that, to be simple is the best.
But really, its not as easy as said, i know and i know you might have experience this.
Alot of times, people need to come to term with themselves about how their true character is before they can identify it and be frank to you and me.
Sometimes, some people are so caught up with being someone else or hiding their flaws so much so that it is already part of them, the way they are, their character issue, that they dont even realise it. They need to take a long time to identify their true self.
So why do people hide themselves, put on a mask ?
Well, I thought perhaps some has gone through problems and have been hurt before, so much so that fear has been build into them that they dont have the courage to do so.
Or maybe some just fear how others might judge them because they know that their true self aint a very pretty front?
Some put up fronts to fit in...
Then again, would you then regard all these as deceiving?

Well, be true to yourself, identify your real self and be simple and the way you are to people around you (:
How real are you?

(:
Anyhow, I am gonna get some work done tonight.
Like my essay before I turn in.

and 3 things I thank God today,

I stay at a place which is pretty much quite accessible to every area of Singapore.
That I've fight on for 3 years and I am still in loveliest relationship with Him.
That I am pretty true the way I am and the way I portray Me to people around me

Goodnight now, essay here I come.
And on a random note.

I love Koi Bubble Tea and Cupwalker bubble tea.
I miss Koi Bubble Tea!

(photo taken during Pst's birthday celebration. A card that Zelia made on behalf of E2. haha.)
((p.s// I know I look so weird. My eyes looks one big one small... ))

everyyear also same.com

i dont really look forward to my birthday lehzxz.
elyn kept reminding me its nearing.
everyyearalsoalmostthesame.
i dont really celebrate much.
plus, i think dad would be out of town.
i doubt he even remembers my birthday :\

heart indie

i am in a grumpy mood.
tired and grumpy and kikikakapalapila ( zzz )

my neck is aching i dont know why.
i dont feel like sleeping yet.
i am kinda planning my week.

day spend:
-stella and her hair done.
-fareast with stella,hweeyee and elyn
-gloriajeans with them
-takingvideos for my work
-video end up not use cos im too lazy and thank you ahboon
-did bm
-walked the malay pasarmalam

I thank God today that my church is almost 24/7 open
I thank God that my hair long enough no need extension like other girls
I thank God that some backsliders are coming back

thank you good bye.

(edit: i think i am grumpy cos its independent week = holidays, but tomorrow i still need to go school cos' nxt week hariraya no sch. ): and also no one is actively talking to me on msn. angrygirl.com)

Monday, September 22, 2008

Hi, Today we are travelling to Yang's Desert

Omgoshz, everything in my house is faulty.
The light in my room, the light in the storeroom.
Even my aircon is always not cooling even when it is on.
It's sucha bad time to have a spoilt aircon becos' the weather is super duper humid ):

The weekend was good and I reflected alot. hehe.

Yesterday I did not blog.
So here's 6 things I thank God for yesterday and today.

Michelle as one of my close friend, who really helped me yesterday
That I am given chances to learn and develop my creative talents in church
For changing me to be a better me as compared to 3 years ago and very much still growing
For having my loveliest Cousins, Ivan/Elgin/Brenda/Justin
That I have a pretty much acceptable height
That I am given chances to do more in the CG

Saturday, September 20, 2008

sweetness that took my heart away.

(: Today was relatively fine.
I am feeling happy in the spirit now after listening to sermon CD 'Faith Leaks' that Wendy got me.
Its really powerful.
Go get a copy from the bookstore (:

Pastor Lia is awesome to max.
She always speaks right to the heart.
And Pastor Lia is preaching this weekend!!!
Excited mama

So like Hweeyee, from this entry onwards, daily I would blog about at least 2 things I wanna thank God about. Perhaps you have no idea, but thanksgiving allows spiritual life to go to a whole new level (:

Just got reminded that few days ago this week, Huiqi asked me about loving people.
I referred back to Hinds' Feet on High Places, and I found these precious sentences I wanna shareeeeeeeee! (:

" Love and Pain go together, for a time at least. If you would know Love, you must know pain too."

" When the seed of Love in your heart is ready to bloom, you will be loved in return."
( This i find it so true, becos' it would mean that you have come to a point you are so ready to love, you love wholeheartedly and sincerely. People appreciates and love you in return. This gives courage and faith (: )

"suddeny, a sweetness she had never felt or imagined before tingled through her. It was bittersweet, but the sweetness was the stronger....."It is so happy to love" "

"with a thrill of wonder and delight, that the seed of Love has been planted in her heart. As she thought of it, the same almost intolerable sweetness stole over her, the bittersweet, indefinable but wholly delightful ectasy of a new happiness"

You know, sometimes it just takes a sincere willing heart to be able to love.

My day was fine.
I had drawing in the airport today.
Time passed by really quickly (:
ChngKang is officially one of my favourite lecturer (:
He is funny man.

After drawing, we hung around, ate Popeyes and took photos and footages for IS.
I visited Candy Empire and bought a chocolate for myself and saw Reese and got it for Hweeyee! (: (:

We took more photos and headed to Cityhall.
Alvin, Zhouzhou and Shenxiao bought some stuffz while Selena and me slacked around and window shopped.

I've tons of funny video I am gonna post slowly...
Alvin is so gonna killlllllll me.
Now I now he reads this space. Tskzzzz

I've so much in my mind.
I feel for many people around me.
i love them thats why i feel for them.
you know, sometimes you think you lack nothing in life.
but the truth is you are missing out on the biggest and most important thing in life.

hmmm.
Anyhow, I thank God today:
-For my awesome fantastic only and first church.
-For my Pastors who sacrificed so much and build this church.
-For God's grace and love that has been on me the past 3 years.

Now, here's some photos to brighten up my entry (:
Meet my classmates (:
*boy with long long hair= alvin
*girl with hair tied up= shenxiao
*girl in cap= zhouzhou
*girl in green hairband= selena
*boy in cardigan= ahboon

and you and you out there.
I love you you and you.
I miss my cousin and fx

(p.s/ by the way gloria jeans at raffles city shopping mall 2-7pm iceblended $3 only )

Friday, September 19, 2008

past, life, future

We sat by the steps of stairs under the moonlight and talked about life.
About past, about people, about the future.
It was a good evening spent with Liwen (:

Girl, I'll see you this Sat ahhhh! (:
Super full, we ate Shoduko ( i think thats how you spell it? ) pasta and icecream at Swenson's.
Me feel super duper duper fat now.
Lucky next week is independent week.

I promise I'll go jogging at least 2 times.
Stamp chop confirm.

On my way to school Zelia text me and made my day with good news (:
Caryn is super nonsense to max and we had championship photos up in facebook now.

I got really grumpy as I reached school.
My teacher remembered me suddenly being his student last year.
He didnt even recognise me last week.
Why?
Because last year, during his first lesson I was late.
Now, what a way to be remembered...

The weather is SO humid, I am feeling so irritated all the time.
Easily irritable y'knw the feeling.
And people just had to come irritate me.

I end up taking a nap instead of working on my SketchUp.

): The aircon is on now but its still soooooooo warm.
I think I'm gonna die of heat stroke soon.
GRRRRRRRR.
I hate perspiring like pig.

I dont feel like going drawing lesson at Airport tml ):
But i'll go. I will.
I must la. aiyo.

goodbye lahhhhhhh

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

eat, sleep, love, play, work. repeat

(: Copeland's music is naise.
Naise= Nice.
Thanks to Chong Ivan I am pronouncing it that way now as well. Tskkkz

Lets see.
Things I have done recently:

- Attended Cooooool H.E. Zanela Makina Service (:
- Celebrated Elyn's 19th (photos laterssssss)
- Rubbing my eyes more often than ever
- Staying up pretty often to do my work
- Fell asleep in Jane Allen's lesson
- Love Rinnah alot ( still do and always forever will , she is happy with her My Little Pony Present a couple of us shared and got for her. :D )
- Sent my dear cousin Ivan and bestfriend Fx to army ):
- Playing Tic-tac-toe poker on MSN with Chongz
- Freaked out by Rat issue in basement (but not bothering much and still ate my bun today during drawing)
- Found out that Mos Burger's bun very nice leh!
- Visited White Tangerine with Caryn and Zelia and held Uno-Stacko championship'08 and omgosh im sucha loser in uno-stacko
- Revived excitement to doodle and gather designs and whatever in a journal
- Ate loads of fruit loops :D
- Thought of losing weight but not very much working well
- Got upset at my parents for my very low allowance ):
- Realised that birthday is coming very soon

Okay so much nonsense okayz i know.
Life's been quite a routine.
But who says routine aint good?
I have been chionging work often. Hardworking me.com

HAHAHA

Tonight's finally some chillingz for me.
I am looking at my livejournal friendzzzz entries and looking at online shopping stuffz.
WOOOOOOO.

Holga is so cool
I want a Holga Camera to play with.....
Color filter pretty mama.

Rahhhhhhhh.
I feel so broke.
I would not be able to own one ):

Oh and by the way, I am still looking for a new big bag.
Versatile and Nice looking.
Hahahaha.
I thought of getting crumpler, but its really abit too casual for me and my clothings.
Roar, so if you see nice bags, (not too ex) let me know thank you.

Happy me, i have been saving quite abit on accesories cos I make them instead.
(: (: (:

Random entry
chaochao. till then

Thursday, September 11, 2008

paint rainbows and doves

Its funny how when you are working you wanna study.
And when you are studying you wanna work.
I officially declare that, me is quite broke.

I have been able to cope financially the past few month's on my past pay.
Daddy daddy aint giving me my allowance yet. Tskkk.
I need to spend wisely ! Ahhh.
That means lesser shopping Xinjie.
Although Selena calls me 'Cheapskate girl' (basically it means i know where are great bargains etc, which she is one too).

School's starting at 2pm today, and I thought I should blog abit since I am up earlier than I wanted to, thanks to Mommy's Karaoke music.
Add some photos here, add some life.

My weeks has been really tight and busy.
I am pretty tired.
I fall asleep SO easily.
My bus rides... the moment i hit my sack...
Usually on the bed before falling asleep, I can still reflect and think of many and a zillion things that happened during the day, or about people and all.
But lately? The moment I am lying there, in less than 2 mins, I am fast sound asleep.

Whatever it is, I know I need to deal with this.
To juggle well and all.
Cos' I know if I wanna grow more, I'll NEVER get slacker but busier. Haha.

I have started to be more thankful for things in my life more than ever lately.
My family, church, school, friends.
I mean, if you know me well enough, I am someone who regards relationships as a very important part of my life.
Regardless of family or friends, I love people I love alot.
And I thank God so much for these people in my life.

E2 is amazing, its gonna be awesome, we gonna grow.
20 is easy.each other.

Oh by the way, RedHotTue was good (:
We had many many new friends (:
So haaaaaaaarrrrrrrr-pie okay! (:
It was great to see Adri bring so many friends again, EV queen totally.
I miss bringing truckloads of friends to church!
I should, i shall, i will ....

I remember having loads of marshmallows (: Happy happy.
And getting terrible stomachache becos' I ate half cooked satays.
I love Satays !
Xinjie is still Xinjie, I love food and food adores me. Hahahahah.
Tomorrow's there is yet another buffet party to attend.

This Saturday it's Rinnah, Adri and Elyn's birthday! (:
Rinnah love love :D
My dream 3 years ago shall come to pass this year, or the most early next year.
Xinjie shall be a great support.
Expand our territory.
Stretch in capacity.
Increase in love for others.
You you and you, we will run side by side, picking each other up when we tumble and fall (:
This journey aint perfect, aint that easy, but we'll tide through it all with

Side track a little, I think people need to learn to respect people.
Everyone's life is different.
Doesnt mean that yours aint the same, you mock or tease others.
Or look at them indifferently..

Now now, time for some photos and I'll go wash up and prepare to go collect my specs, and then make my way to school earlier to do some work.

Photos are in no sequence.
I am just throwing everything in.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Love.Live.Pray

hello world! Imma in class right now, PPD now and Jane is briefing us about school issues..
I feel like imma floating in space.
Spent quite some time doing my colour chart last night and completed it but it looks kinda messy and all still :(
typing this entry using the iPodtouch ain't very easy, haha
there's the redhottuesday event later on and I foresee myself KOing at the end of today.
I feel like sleeping right now, oh man.
school's workload keeps coming, like never ending!
now's really like a time of stretching for me manzzzzz

Oh yeah, recently just made my new pair of specs :) like finally!
Happy girlzzzzzz
2weeks from now its independent week, yay, time to catch up with some sleep and my overdue work!

I wanna sleeeeeeeeeep! The whole amosphere in the class is quite dead, everyone hasn't had much rest lately i guess
Mooncake festival is round the corner and I have yet to get my hands on any of those yummy snowskin chic mooncakes... Hehehe

My dear cousin Ivan is entering the army next Monday :(
hopefully he will eventually get 8-5!
the good flen FX is entering on the same day too ,rawrrrr

I had a good lunch with Elyn yesterday and we kinda had some heart to heart talk.

A random thought;
I realize something abt people that it is a norm that we are generally quite judgemental beings
we judge things, people almost anything and everything.
We oftenly have a certain conception of people and things before we really know better
it's really funny how the human's mind works.

Lesson has just ended, break for lunch now.
tata outta here now.
Till then!

Sunday, September 7, 2008

you're the love of my life

Hello world, I am finally back to this space.
Taking some time to chillpillz before getting all hectic again.
I am actually quite tired right now. zzz.

Let's see.
Life's been fine fine (:
I have been quite thoughtful today. Many things going through my mind.
Majority pretty much of self-reflection and such I suppose.

Today's service was great.
It's pretty much like one of the discipleship class I had with Pastor How when we watch Lions for Lambs. About our values in life, anchoring, knowing what we want to do in life.
The desires and opportunities that would come our way, dealing with pressures and influence of people and life.
Sometimes it really isnt about what we want aint it?
Give a thought to that... uhmmm...

Rightttt, and today I have came to realisation after listening to some conversations and sharings from people, and perhaps God has shown it to me that, really, you me I we, really aint perfect.
I look and tried searching myself on the inside and I was struggling and giving myself excuses for certain things I dont really do well, or being nice etc. Aint too pretty on the inside I realised...

Sometimes I thought I am quite a nice person already, well or at least trying to be better for now. But really, come to think of it, I have changed a little only, not too much.
Perhaps a whole load to others, but coming in conclusion to self reflection, personally I thought there's so much more room for myself to change and grow.

Hahahha. So much self thoughts huh.
It's good thoughts I suppose. I mean, I dont emo or whatsoever over it (:
Since I have no idea when have I stopped that whole emo-season. haha.

Wendy said the other day I use to emo once in a white moon!
(catch it? no?)

Let's see whats up lately, class chalet was last week. It was crazy willy wally. But well it's over and back to burying head into piles of catridge papers, pens pencils paint. all the P's .

We celebrated Jeremy's 21st last week too.
E2 went excursion to Evi's place on Thursday night. Haha!
Recently I cant remember which day was it, we had OpsGeneralTraining too, it was refreshing for the mind too (: Winning team ! :D
I remember myself visiting Liwen too (:
Also, went to stock up stocks with Elyn and bought ckOneSummerrrrrrrr.
I just made a new belt toooooo! (:
Happy girl, there's one more yet to be made. Woohoohoo.
It was BK's birthday yesterday (now it's sun 2.12am) so happy belated birthday BK.
I've embarrased myself on your birthday, but I have made things better by being such a good help okay! hahahah

I have loads of photos posted up on facebook.
I am too lazy to post here lehhh.

Elyn was webcamming with me and she fell aslp right infront of the cam.
Hahaaaaaaa. Screenshot, I can blackmail her next time already!

(: I am outta here now.
And I love Rinnah very much (:
She hugged me before I left earlier and said "xinjie, I want you to play with me tomorrow!"
heee hee heee. happy gurlzzzzz.

lubx.