ThisisXinjie -

walk on walk on

(: Easter was beyond awesome
God is super duper l-o-v-e ♥

Despite times when we are down and dont know what to know, He always takes me in His hands, lead me... keeping me moving... going... (:

E20 broke through and it was really a sweet sight.
i love all of you very much although i just dont say it often.

I wanna blog now cos' today was a good day! (:
I experienced how God loves us even when we are very 'chui' sometimes.
Hehehe, and much thoughts provoking conversations I had today...
but its all good thoughts good thoughts! :o)

Garrett & Jamie had HQ with us early in the morning, I nearly died while desperately waiting for a cab. A reckless taxi driver anyhow U-turn and a female driver trying to avoid banging him, skied towards where I stood...it was less than 1 m away... PHEW.

Anyway back to HQ, it was really great. It kept me thinking about people, and love.
Jamie mentioned something which really caught me, she said that whatever that we hang on to, it would be what our people hang on to as well... what captivates us captivates them.

A simple statement, but it really caught me reflecting and thinking, so what was it that really caught my attention and kept me going when I had my really down times in my walk with God.
It's really His love, I will never forget during one of the Emerge conference how I experienced God in such deep way. "I will never forsake you if you would hang on to Me"
And I remember how I was really down 2 years ago, and I kinda still forced myself to VBS then. There was a passage given to us about this 2 horses being trained... that story caught me.
Again it was during that period of time God showed His love and mercy so so clearly to me, during one of my part time 1 day job as a receptionist, as I was doing nothing and reading "Hinds Feet on Highest place", part of the story caught my spirit, click it into place and allowed me to make right decisions and choices I had to make. And from then on, I grew and I started to fly in Him.
& it was, Pastors' love and care.
They are just amazing amazing people who sacrifice so much just to love God's generation of people.
I am blown away by my Pastors. Totally totally respect and love them.
If you build others dreams, God will build yours.

Its just so cool.
I started to think about E20, i love the girls + Yongkok! so so much.
We make a strong team.
Let's make it our dreamteam, Pastors' dreamteam, Charleston Garrett and Jamie's dreamteam.
Oftenly we talk about wanting to live life together , build life together...
but lets really do it and not just talk it.

Easter 2009 was really sweet.
I saw how Yongkok, Liwen and Huiqi worked so hard.
They sacrifice their time...they took the effort.. stepped out of their comfort zone...
Mannnnn! Love you all ahhh!
The muffins we made together were really nice.

Huiqi is cool. Totally appreciates her effort to juggle her time between her school, ministry and CG. It's just amazing to see how she just always sacrifice, make things happen and always having that "wont die one just do it lah" attitude. She's so cool you all should meet her and she would flip her hair at you (o:

Liwen is amazing you know. She fought her own fight, standing where she is today. She is never the kinda person who likes to be in the limelight, she just keeps doing what she can do to help. Growing and growing, loving and loving... & she's growing to be someone more confident nowadays and I am proud of her (:

Yongkok the guy in E20 is a real man ohgay! Despite being the only guy, silent boy he is, he stepped out of his comfort zone and invited his friend to church! He make sure she was talked to, she was fine.. it's just so so cool okay. He is a real man he helped us bake muffins! Real man bakes (: hahaha.

Charmaine is funkywonky too. She's just the buzz in the CG always giggling like crazy but adding life to us along with Qi. Charmaine if you are reading this, we love you and we are waiting for your peanut butter pasta. HAHAHAHAHA :B

Ohhhh, and recently I met someone really cool. Her name is Baoying. She's just so... cool! HAHA! She is someone really very in your face, she is real and despite her own problems at home, she has shown to me to be someone who cares for others. (: what pleasure to know her man! :D

Here's a picture of Myself, Liwen, Baoying and Qi! (:
































I know I really look quite funny here with my untidy bangs, but they look so awesome (o: !!

I had a great time fellowshipping with Huimin and Chew today as well in the evening.
Found out more about Huimin, we chat and just enjoyed each other's company.
And later caught up with Chew after a lonnnnnnnnnnng time of not talking to her.
We talked about life, how we have grown up but yet we are only at the 1st quarter of our life.
But its just so cool to have a friend running this race with you all this while.
We shared about how chui we were and God lifted us up.
Sometimes being in problems aint exactly a bad thing because out of it, you grow.
It's just really amazing and I was feeling very very thankful.
As we chatted, I started pondering about how God is sooooo amazing in my life.
Indeed He's the one that keeps my heart beating, going and going.. walking on walking on.

We happily drank kopi (frappe) at TCC & thats why NOW I AM SO AWAKE AT 4.05am.
Hahaha.
But anyway, we abit chui, didnt realise we dont have alot of cash.
So ended up I actually dont have enough $ to go home!!!
Thus I only bought standard ticket till Sengkang and was deciding to maybe walk home from there...
God really takes care of us... indeed man. Even little things like this..

So what happen was that as I reached SK, I took Huimin's advice and went to the Control station to ask if there was anymore last bus.. but obviously there isnt so I told them my situation of not having enough cash to go on to my LRT's stop.

Miracle 1: SMRT Uncle borrowed me $1 and told me to return him tomorrow (which seriously is quite sweet, he trusted that I would return him!!! ) so I thanked him and was very happy.

Took LRT back home and upon reaching my station.. got down and wanted to top up the $1 as my standard ticket was not sufficient.
As it was the last LRT train already, another SMRT uncle came down , wanting to close the station. He helped me with the topping up of my $1, however the machine just refuse to allow my top up after many tries.

In the end...

Miracle 2: I was let out of the station for free. Hahahahahah! I can even still claim the $1 frm my standard ticket!! I will definitely return the SMRT uncle tomorrow his dollar! (:

But through this, I was really amazed and happy.
I know God was with me, taking care of me.
Sounds ridiculous to some of you why I would even say so, but really... it was just.. so God.
I was really quite worried you know.

(: Time for bed now.
And I gonna keep running.
Come along with me!


♥xin

I gotta keep praising Your name
That's the only way that I'll find healing
I wanna be Your little girl and You are my Great Big Daddy God (:

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