xoxo

Monday, July 28, 2008

I'll Move On

A very beautiful song to start off my day (:
I was introduced to this song recently.

I'll Move On

This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me through
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain
Looking back I've come so far and I want to carry on

Take a step a little time it's alright
Even through this rain
I want to smile again

Don't hold back now
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me thru'
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am Here I am
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on

(: It's nice. You can hear it on my Minipod on the right. heh (:

We do life together.

Life aint a bed of roses.
It's really about how we fight, how convicted we are.

I am much lifted after some talk.
And really pouring out everything inside me and seeking solutions.

It's about building dreams, doing life together.
You you you, i am glad you are on the same track as me.
I am glad we are walking side by side, holding on to each other as we tumble and fall at times.
You you you, you might not be walking the same road as me now,
but i know you would one day.
For God is bigger than problems.
He is bigger than selfishness.
He is bigger than everything.

Above everything, He rules over them.

So today, if you are trying to ruin situations, think twice (:
Devil gonna flee and back away.

I have mighty people right beside me, I have mighty almighty Him (:
Try us.

The spirit is so encouraged.

thank You (:

Two more days @ work, i'll miss chicsean .

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Take Hold of Everything.

The pimple on the corner of my lip is making me irritated.
The ants on my table that keeps crawling onto my fingers and laptop is irritating me too.
Goodness, I have no idea where they appeared from.
I just ate un-chilled MEIJI Strawberry Yoghurt.
Quite sad , quite disappointed cos' its not chilled.
The fridge at home aint fixed.
No cold stuff for me.

I feel like going for a jog now. but its already 12.09am.
I need to let go some weight of myself.
Physically and in thoughts.

My heart feels heavy.
There are just certain things I wish I understand.

& God I pray you allow me to see the things unseen and reveal to me things to me.

Not a very good night.

Things will get better tomorrow.
I'll pray.

A Time for Everything.

Haha, just realised that I haven't blogged since Wednesday.
(: So I thought I would might as well blog a little since I am still awake tho its already 2am.
After this entry, I guess I would head to bed.

I have quite a number of photos in my camera right now.
-Benny's sleeping face, Peishan's 20th at B&J@Dempsey Hill.
I will update them soon!
Life's good I would still say.

I dont really know what to blog, so this entry might be pretty much a messy one.
Thoughts overflowing that is not processed properly, considering that I am quite tired.
Heh(:
Eli and I came to realise today that-
E2 girls all quite pretty and likes to dress up leh! (Ahems)
Hahaha, but well well, the girls in church are all very pretty.
All of us look so good (:
Flowing from the top. Mwahaha.

Let's see, what have I been up to...
Work, looking forward to school, seeking revelations after revelations from God,
supper with sis&co. , praying and seeing things happening in the 4D, and thinking quite abit about my desires, dreams, ideas and life.

The other day, the sis and Melissa my colleague was talking about ol'school days.
Autograph books (remember all the "roses are red i am cool so are you, fav friend, fav singer, fav food, blood type, dont tear my pages or i fine you) ? , and the countries' eraser game (flick and flip), and hopscotch and starfish (my fav. apparently)
Hehe, its all so cool.
I miss ol'school days!

Who wanna play with me Starfish!! :D:D
(2,4,6,8 in out in step.)

Peishan's birthday yesterday and Grismond's was 2 days before hers.
So happy birthday to both of you (:
Hehe, I am glad Peishan had a great time yesterday at b&j@dempsey.
We had fun eating icecream, taking photos and enjoying good music.
Environment, company and food all falls nicely into place.

I like jazz music! :D

(: During service today, a thought came to me.
There is a time for everything.
Many times we always are so anxious and we rush through things.
Sometimes there are things around us that are precious and beautiful that we fail to take note of as well rush through life, not slowing down to look around.
Sometimes we want and demand for things to happen during wrong times.
Things would definitely only fall into place nicely when we allow God to decide what to do with our time.

Through years in church there are just times of joy, times of tears. Times when people come into my life and got really close to me, times when people step away and walk out, leave. There is always time when we rejoice, merry but times when we feel down, sometimes some of our dreams tarry, times we work hard together and times we dream together and have our fair share of rest. It is beautiful to have you and you beside me.
We do life together. Locking arms together knowing we are one big family and army of God.
God put us altogether for a purpose and reason isnt it?

School is starting on the 4th.
I am excited yet really this is the time I rely on God for strength and courage.
There's a lot of fear after much has gone through in my education.
I need to start seeing things happening to me in my education in the 4D.
I will get my degree (:

I am thankful for the many many things in my life.

I am sleepy now and I was pretty much treated too much like a boy during supper early ):

Off to bed.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Precious Love

What is precious to you today?
What are your 5 loaves and 2 fishes that you can offer to God?

To give wholly to Him.
Surrender every area of your life to Him.
EVERY AREA.
How much are you willing to give?

As I begin to step close, being more willing and giving Him nothing but a humble heart.
He moulds me like a clay, He is my Potter (:

I cant deny how real this can get.
That- when you do all the above-
the desires of YOUR heart is the desires that HE holds on to as well.
He has worked things out in my life for me.
I have experienced, witness it myself.
Just as I step out with faith, things awesome are happening in my life already (:

BMT was fantabulous.
Living day by day by His revelations.
(: I am a jolly girl.

Today, we all want our CG/Team/Church to grow.
Let's grow ourselves stronger before everything else (:

Amazing You are.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Your Call on My Life took Me On

I am at work now, very sleepy.
Waiting for lunch... (:

Out of no reason I was suddenly humming "God of my Forever"
(: it's sucha song of conviction and love (:

GOD OF MY YOUTH I REMEMBER
YOUR CALL ON MY LIFE TOOK ME O'ER
YOUR LOVE HAS SEEN ME THROUGH ALL MY DAYS
I STAND HERE BY YOUR GRACE

ON THIS ALTAR I'VE WRITTEN MY LIFE
TELLS OF THE STORY I HAVE WITH YOU MY LORD
I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW

GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I'M WITH YOU
MY LIFE IS SAVED WITH A PRICE
YOUR SACRIFICE REDEEMED MY SOUL

GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I WILL SING
MY GREATEST HONOR WILL ALWAYS BE
TO SERVE MY LORD AND KING

GOD OF MY LIFE I'VE SURRENDERED
MY HEART FINDS ITS REST IN YOUR WORD
PRAISES WILL NOT BE ENOUGH TO SHOW
HOW MY LOVE FOR YOU HAS GROWN

NOTHING MATTERS WHEN YOU'RE HERE WITH ME
IN THE END JUST TO HEAR YOU SAY “WELL DONE”
BOWING BEFORE YOUR THRONE

FOREVER AND EVER
JESUS YOU ALONE IN GLORY REIGN
FOREVER AND EVER
WITH YOU I WALK THIS NARROW WAY

Would I take that and go?

A very good friend asked me a question yesterday.
I was quick and gave a rather immediate answer.
But to ponder now and think over it again, I think my answer would still be the same.

you are very special.
you are you are. really.

i am sure many would support my answer to the question.
for His ways are bigger.
my desires are close to Him as well, & i trust in that.

i just recalled how i asked that very good friend something a few weeks ago too.
between this and that certain things which would be chosen.
no answer was given.
but issues has been given, situations has happened.
let's see how it goes.
i believe you will make the best choice out of whats given.

(:

Hold me Close

So funny, just few minutes ago I was reading my old blog.

Things have changed so much since.
For the better of cos'
I was such a silly girl in the past.
But well well, all those silliness made me grew didnt they?

I am thinking of teaching tuition when school starts.
Still need some pocket money and allowance for myself.
Hmmm. Maybe I can teach some art and chinese.
Lobangs?

My eyelids are heavy now...
I am getting sleepy yawning away.

CG today was postponed ):
Hope Wednesday would be good for everyone!

It's Lucinda and Krystal's birthday (:
Happy birthday to both you! :D:D

I am craving Koi right now (x
Shall get them tomorrow.

I am confused by certain things and certain people.
Tskzzzzzz.

Flu is bad.

What a ranting post.

Good night &,
you're special.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Glory. Honour

It's been long since I have Saturday mornings, sitting by my working desk,
typing away here on my blog, having after thoughts of a great event.
Church builder service was definitely awesome to the max.
Through out the whole service,
I was just so captured and overwhelmed by how amazing God has been in my life.
Upon all my ups and downs these 3 years about, 2months 9 days-
He has been so so faithful.
So gracious and filled with mercy.

I will never forget that day, I made my promise to Him that I, will never forsake Him.
For He spoke that day that words-
"My girl, I will never forsake you, I've died for you because I love you. How about you?"
It's convictions that kept me going.
Truly, He is the King of Glory.

How do I put this?
My spirit felt so lifted.
Everything is possible!

I stay faithful, I am convicted, He is able.
I am believing, I dont know if you are.
I am running, will you run with me?
I might dream even more and higher thoughts, cos' I know He is able.
So I dare. do you?
(: What are the desires of my heart?
From Now, to the near future.
1. To wholly give to you every area of my life.
For gold and silver I have none, but here I am (:
2. E2- 25 25 25! maybe even 30.
Cos I saw E2 in my 4D filling up one and a half row in the centre section!
3. Im gonna be a CGL! (:
4. My PapaMama, Gonggong and Ahma are coming (:
And know what? Not just coming, but loving God.
5. Myself to be a pillar in church, not just a pillar but a STRONG pillar!
Carrying burdens of Pastors and Leaders (:
6. I will finish my degree in Lasalle (Definitely ok!)
7. I'm gonna be successful to glorify Him, to be able to influence.

Yeah I know along the way, these might tarry, I may face difficulties.
But deep in my heart, and not so deep within, I will always know that-
Through storms and raging seas, Im never alone (:

I am so lifted! (:
& definitely believe that God is helping me alongside while I do things in/for CG (:
I am beginning to be more loving :D
Haha, its good its good.

It's not just how I can serve Him and He sees me now.
But how He loves me and holds my desires and dreams close too.
This is just so encouraging.

2 Timothy 1:12
"For this reason I also suffer these things; nevertheless I am not ashamed,
for I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep what I have committed to Him until that Day."

The day I get baptised in water, this shall be my life verse (:

(: Gonna get going and settle somethings before heading to church for prayer meeting.
I really love E2. Crazy bunch, but things gonna happen.
We just need that spark now.
P.U.S.H

I really love life (:

OH YA OH YA.
Also,

Very much with love and thanksgiving to God for both of you-
Happy 21st Birthday Roy! & Happy 18th Birthday Aaron (cheong) !
A big 21st stepping into adulthood and a very lovely 18th maybe 1 foot into adulthood.

(:

Friday, July 18, 2008

Zoo zoo zoo

Zoo was fun.
Haha, its been long since I last visited the zoo.
I think Primary school days (:
However it was really tiring when little Aldric gets angry at Jackson and only wants me to carry him. Hahaha.
He is so talkative.
Super funny.
FX must be a happy man. Aldric easily allowed him to carry him and play with him etc.
Jacky's first visit to the zoo today.
Haha super funny.

Monkeys, Elephant show, KFC, playing with water blabla (:
Playing with water...
Kids loveeeeee water huh!
Haha, Aldric ends up taking off pants and pampers to play in the water playground...
My gosh, i was very shocked and I got Jackson to take off his sneakers and socks to go in.
I was too paiseh.
Super funny, and then this FX and Jacky, sit there and laugh only.

His Gonggong and Ahma came to fetch him home,
and we rested a little at Macs and later watched Red Cliff Part 1.
Oh man its quite exciting and alot of revelations eh as I watched the show.
So much about courage and bravery. Love and Righteousness.
Believing and encouraging.
Pretty much what I needed.
Hahaha...
I am tired after the tour around the zoo alrdy I nearly fell aslp in the cinema.
Lucky the show was exciting enough to keep me awake.

Now now, here's some photos (im off to make my cards and pray pray pray (: )

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Faraway Soul

A thought.

It funny how someone you always knew since young, someone close seems like a stranger to you.
A stranger you dont understand.
A stranger whose thoughts you grasp nothing out of.
Someone who is so, hard to decipher.

I'll blog about my zoo trip soon.

Now, back t work.
School is starting in 2 weeks (:

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Beautiful You and Me

I am going to the zoo zoo zoo.
How about you you you!

I am going to the zoo tomorrow!
:D It's gonna be fun with little boyboy.
Hahaha.
I am like so not pedophile.
Realllly, im not. Hahaha.
Chic Sean is super cute and I haven't seen him for 2 days already ):

Pecky just came over my house to get some clothes (:

Hwahwahwachiwawaaaa.
I just got some nice clothes frm some Taiwan Spree and i am happy.
Cos' its all quite cheap!
The jacket thats like looking quite expensive is only like 15-16bucks!

I enjoyed day home today.
Workplan, read, listen to songs, writing down revelations, online shopping, talking to mommy, watching tv with mom, uploading photos, catching up with some old friends.
Initially wanted to go prayer meeting, but mom cooked dinner and it rained.

I hope it doesnt rain tomorrow talking about rain...

CG yesterday was good (:
Our very first CG.
E2 E2 E2 25.

I feel like bursting.
I see how it is gonna happen in the 4th Dimension, but I look at it now.
I was telling Wendy how its like ah "Ahhhhhhh!!" feeling which I cant explain in words.
Hahaha.
Maybe if you want I can show you my expression to it.
It's like an exciting thing coming but not yet.
And you just cant wait kinda feeling you know?

Supper with Wendy, Adri, Samantha, Furong and Gab last night too at the usual place.
The Prata House.
Forever there only.
And forever their service so lousy.
HAHAHA.

I love Ice Horlicks! :D

Random photos of July

Crazy girls photos, gone mad in Artiste Room. Hahah :p
Boxue zilian, and I appeared :D
Zelia and Krystal is love!
Grismond the ahbeng and his ahbeng car, plus the petrol uncle.
Ahbeng's helper (: latenight supper. blablablaaaa

Monday, July 14, 2008

Growth

A little tiny seed needs to be taken care by, put into soil, watered to grow.

(: I feel myself being filled by Him.
It's awesome. The whole feeling of growing and growth.

Discipleship class yesterday was awesome. So so much impartation :D
I've got the most awesomesterestest pastors. hahaha (:
They are so so amazing, so much capacity. So much wisdom (:
Cant wait for the next discipleship class timing to be out.
To draw closer and more from Pastors (:

This whole season its about leadership.
It's about loving people.
It's about believing and seeing it in the 4th Dimension.

I am seeing things coming to past.
E2 25. It shall happen.
Xinjie will grow explode.

And ignore my prev post abt me feeling fat etc etc. hahaha (:
Im gonna think bigger thoughts.
hahahah (:

I am very very excited and happy.
First E2 Cg later! (:

I'll upload the many photos in my camera soon.
crazy photos i promise. hahaha.
Elyn Khoo super unglam!

But really, I love you you you and you.
You're beautiful (:

Hunger, Love, 4D, Connection.

This season.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Hold on to Our Dreams

"The decisions you make now can’t be changed but with years and years of hard work to redo it. In those years you become something different, everybody does as time passes, you get married, you get into debt but you never get to be the same person you are right now. The promise and the potential, is very fickle and it just might not be there anymore.

What I’m saying is you’re an adult now. The tough thing about adulthood is it starts even before you know it starts when you are already a dozen decisions into it. But what you need to know is no lifeguard is watching you anymore, you’re on your own. You’re your own man and the decisions you now make are yours and yours alone from here until the end."

Remember the post I blogged sometime ago?
It all ties down to this particular part of a movie.

( I shall not disclose the movie, yettttt)
But again and again, I read these words over and over, it hits so hard into my heart.

All the dreams and ideas are deeply secured into my heart.
However really, in the heart only its not good enough.
Im gonna guard them, Im gonna anchor them.

I have photos not uploaded yet. ( Supper with Gris/Jackson last night, and some snaps from today's outing with E2 girls + a very nice derrick ah boy. ) hahahah (:
Im too lazy to upload, i'll do it soon.

Life's good.
Hub Station is cool (: Sis just got it on Sat.
Yay can record shows to watch. Mwahahaaaa.

Things on my mind currently:

- I feel fat.
- How come Lasalle haven't send me the letter to inform me about orientation?
- E2 is gonna be awesome.
- What to wear tomorrow for work?
- E21. HAHAH :D
- Very warm, must go on fan.
- I am starting to like dresses alot ah.
- How to invite ******?
- I want to go sleep already.
- Is my friend ok?
- Is Jackson and Gris highlighting their hair tomorrow?

Okay, thats all. So nonsense (:

I am thankful for the many things in my life.
(:

& conclusion of the day: the new e2 structure- we are all quite noisy, eat alot and can shop quite well. very good. HAHAHAHAH

Time for bed.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Values

I can do this this that and this.
I can choose to do all sorts of nonsense.

But I choose not to cos' of certain values I hold close.
I know what are the things most precious to me in life compared to the temp(s).

How about you?
What are your values?

Monday, July 7, 2008

E2 Chompzxzx

Dinner with E2 that night was good (:
Great fellowship, we had fun playing around and taking photos!

Tatata, here's some photos.

Here you gooooooo

(:

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Sunshine.

Haha. Life's good.
Im happy.
But hungry now.
After this its back to work and im gonna eatttttttt something.

TONIGHT TONIGHT CHOMPCHOMPS with E2. :D
Gonna be noisily fun (:

yay.

Anyway, here's updates from few days ago.
Gris and Jackson wanted to go highlight hair, but the Salon closed.
So we headed to Hongkong Cafe to have dinner (:
Ate some signature fried rice (:
I love the POLUOBAO! :D very good (:
Im kinda amused right at this moment... hahahah
(PEISHAN! I WILL TELL YOU!!)

& anyway we wanted to go Damsey Hill to have icecream at b&j
but it was too late by the time we reached and headed to Ice cube once again.

We had sundaes and it was all funny.
Here's photos.
Tatata.
Too lazy to upload so here's the album.
so... HERE!

and, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANDSOME BRO.