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2009-05-28T05:53:00.001+08:00

Still updating here.
But for my frequent nonsenses...
perhaps

this
is better

What remains

2009-05-27T17:52:00.003+08:00

The holiday is here and I am still in search for a job.

1 good news to share: I promoted & would be going to Arts Mgmt. Thank God for that.

Much thoughts boggling my mind lately and I cross my fingers and pray that things would get better.
Sometimes we just hope that we are better.
We hope we can be all that people wants us to be, but we cant exactly meet up to everyone's expectation.

Secretly, I wish I can just make this life better.

& I will always remember to thank God for amazing and supportive friends.

and the star doesnt always shine.

★ xin

Of all Beautiful Things

2009-05-14T03:40:00.002+08:00

I am back from the long hiatus.
Assessment has been long out since 30th.
I am enjoying my holidays right now (:
Trying to find some part-time job at the same time.
Things has been pretty alright I guess.

Really random updates, its 4.14am... so yes...

I just hope things in the household would get better that's all.
And I get my support from God, and great Pastors, leaders and friends in church.
I am really thankful for Pastors. Even though I dont say much to them, they always know what I am thinking, whats on my mind, what I am worrying about... it's amazing aint it.
(:

The results are gonna be out on Friday.
The whole anticipation is kinda keeeee-linggggg. Hahaha.
Lasalle'ians are all paranoid and mannn, its horrible feeling.
I m just gonna keep telling and believing and having faith that i WILL NOT receive any phonecalls on Friday evening/night!!!
Pray for me !!!

Things are getting exciting for Fashion Ministry...
Watch this space. I'll tell you more.
I am really excited for what is to come... it's amazing.
We'll all grow to another level.

Have not updated for a long time. Dont really know what to update... haha.
Just Monday I hung out with Adri and Seetoh (:
Enjoys Seetoh's company alot. She's super lovable (yay!)

Oh yeah ! Red Rain is coming... woohoo.
4 years ago, I got to know about Jesus during Red Rain!!!

I am craving to eat some jello now *slurps*
And I want a sleepover party.

Cant wait for June Camp too ! (:

Ah yes, I need to get some haircut on my fringe..

Ok, I am off, I'll update nonsenses again soon (:

(Random thought: Whats the condition of your heart today?)

love,xin

Just A Little More

2009-04-27T01:42:00.001+08:00

Let's not shortchange God in tough times.
Each time we feel we cant move on, God says, "Just a little more"
Reallllllllllly, Its just A LITTLE MORE!

That LITTLE MORE can make a BIG difference.

So, Xinjie...
JUST A LITTLE MORE.
Thursday will be cool.
Assessment would be good.

Celebration for Pastor Lia's birthday was sweet (:
I love my Pastors very much (: Love Rinnah too.

E20, JUST GOTTA GO A LITTLE MORE.
I feel that there's just so much more space to go, and to grow.

Adios for now.
I will be back after assessment. Till then.

In the meantime,
Keep focus.
Keep safe and take care.

♥xin

walk on walk on

2009-04-13T03:35:00.003+08:00

(: Easter was beyond awesome
God is super duper l-o-v-e ♥

Despite times when we are down and dont know what to know, He always takes me in His hands, lead me... keeping me moving... going... (:

E20 broke through and it was really a sweet sight.
i love all of you very much although i just dont say it often.

I wanna blog now cos' today was a good day! (:
I experienced how God loves us even when we are very 'chui' sometimes.
Hehehe, and much thoughts provoking conversations I had today...
but its all good thoughts good thoughts! :o)

Garrett & Jamie had HQ with us early in the morning, I nearly died while desperately waiting for a cab. A reckless taxi driver anyhow U-turn and a female driver trying to avoid banging him, skied towards where I stood...it was less than 1 m away... PHEW.

Anyway back to HQ, it was really great. It kept me thinking about people, and love.
Jamie mentioned something which really caught me, she said that whatever that we hang on to, it would be what our people hang on to as well... what captivates us captivates them.

A simple statement, but it really caught me reflecting and thinking, so what was it that really caught my attention and kept me going when I had my really down times in my walk with God.
It's really His love, I will never forget during one of the Emerge conference how I experienced God in such deep way. "I will never forsake you if you would hang on to Me"
And I remember how I was really down 2 years ago, and I kinda still forced myself to VBS then. There was a passage given to us about this 2 horses being trained... that story caught me.
Again it was during that period of time God showed His love and mercy so so clearly to me, during one of my part time 1 day job as a receptionist, as I was doing nothing and reading "Hinds Feet on Highest place", part of the story caught my spirit, click it into place and allowed me to make right decisions and choices I had to make. And from then on, I grew and I started to fly in Him.
& it was, Pastors' love and care.
They are just amazing amazing people who sacrifice so much just to love God's generation of people.
I am blown away by my Pastors. Totally totally respect and love them.
If you build others dreams, God will build yours.

Its just so cool.
I started to think about E20, i love the girls + Yongkok! so so much.
We make a strong team.
Let's make it our dreamteam, Pastors' dreamteam, Charleston Garrett and Jamie's dreamteam.
Oftenly we talk about wanting to live life together , build life together...
but lets really do it and not just talk it.

Easter 2009 was really sweet.
I saw how Yongkok, Liwen and Huiqi worked so hard.
They sacrifice their time...they took the effort.. stepped out of their comfort zone...
Mannnnn! Love you all ahhh!
The muffins we made together were really nice.

Huiqi is cool. Totally appreciates her effort to juggle her time between her school, ministry and CG. It's just amazing to see how she just always sacrifice, make things happen and always having that "wont die one just do it lah" attitude. She's so cool you all should meet her and she would flip her hair at you (o:

Liwen is amazing you know. She fought her own fight, standing where she is today. She is never the kinda person who likes to be in the limelight, she just keeps doing what she can do to help. Growing and growing, loving and loving... & she's growing to be someone more confident nowadays and I am proud of her (:

Yongkok the guy in E20 is a real man ohgay! Despite being the only guy, silent boy he is, he stepped out of his comfort zone and invited his friend to church! He make sure she was talked to, she was fine.. it's just so so cool okay. He is a real man he helped us bake muffins! Real man bakes (: hahaha.

Charmaine is funkywonky too. She's just the buzz in the CG always giggling like crazy but adding life to us along with Qi. Charmaine if you are reading this, we love you and we are waiting for your peanut butter pasta. HAHAHAHAHA :B

Ohhhh, and recently I met someone really cool. Her name is Baoying. She's just so... cool! HAHA! She is someone really very in your face, she is real and despite her own problems at home, she has shown to me to be someone who cares for others. (: what pleasure to know her man! :D

Here's a picture of Myself, Liwen, Baoying and Qi! (:

I know I really look quite funny here with my untidy bangs, but they look so awesome (o: !!

I had a great time fellowshipping with Huimin and Chew today as well in the evening.
Found out more about Huimin, we chat and just enjoyed each other's company.
And later caught up with Chew after a lonnnnnnnnnnng time of not talking to her.
We talked about life, how we have grown up but yet we are only at the 1st quarter of our life.
But its just so cool to have a friend running this race with you all this while.
We shared about how chui we were and God lifted us up.
Sometimes being in problems aint exactly a bad thing because out of it, you grow.
It's just really amazing and I was feeling very very thankful.
As we chatted, I started pondering about how God is sooooo amazing in my life.
Indeed He's the one that keeps my heart beating, going and going.. walking on walking on.

We happily drank kopi (frappe) at TCC & thats why NOW I AM SO AWAKE AT 4.05am.
Hahaha.
But anyway, we abit chui, didnt realise we dont have alot of cash.
So ended up I actually dont have enough $ to go home!!!
Thus I only bought standard ticket till Sengkang and was deciding to maybe walk home from there...
God really takes care of us... indeed man. Even little things like this..

So what happen was that as I reached SK, I took Huimin's advice and went to the Control station to ask if there was anymore last bus.. but obviously there isnt so I told them my situation of not having enough cash to go on to my LRT's stop.

Miracle 1: SMRT Uncle borrowed me $1 and told me to return him tomorrow (which seriously is quite sweet, he trusted that I would return him!!! ) so I thanked him and was very happy.

Took LRT back home and upon reaching my station.. got down and wanted to top up the $1 as my standard ticket was not sufficient.
As it was the last LRT train already, another SMRT uncle came down , wanting to close the station. He helped me with the topping up of my $1, however the machine just refuse to allow my top up after many tries.

In the end...

Miracle 2: I was let out of the station for free. Hahahahahah! I can even still claim the $1 frm my standard ticket!! I will definitely return the SMRT uncle tomorrow his dollar! (:

But through this, I was really amazed and happy.
I know God was with me, taking care of me.
Sounds ridiculous to some of you why I would even say so, but really... it was just.. so God.
I was really quite worried you know.

(: Time for bed now.
And I gonna keep running.
Come along with me!

♥xin

I gotta keep praising Your name
That's the only way that I'll find healing
I wanna be Your little girl and You are my Great Big Daddy God (:

stepping into faith

2009-04-08T12:03:00.002+08:00

I should be going to get prepared for school @ 2pm, but man... I am feeling really tired because I slept at 5.30am...
Nevertheless, my spirit is super duper awake, excited and hyped up for EASTER this weekend!
(: (: (:

Few things on my mind right now:

I am gonna see the 2i classmates in awhile, its cool... I hope some of them would come for Easter!!!
Easter Easter Easter, its in my mind all the time this 2 weeks. It's gonna be awesome awesome.
Fasting for Easter today! Pray pray pray (:
E20's new friends names for Easter keeps resounding in my head.
Baoying, I am thinking about you!! (if you are even reading this) God's love will cover you! (:
School Work, I will conquer you, I will go level 1
Jane Allan is really one rather sweet lecturer (o:
God is good!!!! I love my life, everything everything
Illustrator later, I wonder if Nadia will scream at my work... HAHAHA
Dad
I wanna work part time in church during my holidays!
Baking tomorrow, gonna be exciting (:
Questal (: I hope you're feelng better
Should I crash Adri's Passion Party later? hehehehee.
Be thankful about the life you are leading, its not that bad!

Goodbye now, time to prepare for school....

(: xin

Quenched.

2009-04-07T02:54:00.002+08:00

Last weekend was totally fantabulous.
Saturday we all learnt much from Pastor Don Easton! (o:
Sunday was totally one ignited moment in my life.
It's been long since we dwell in such deep worship...
Really really powerful.

Totally refreshed and renewed.
It was a truly awesome experience on Sunday.
Being ministered by Pastor Lia & then praying for others.

God spoke a word so simple yet really impacted me.
I cried like... a hungry baby.
hehehe.
Deeper. Deeper. Take me deeper.

Indeed God knows me the best...
My thoughts, my thoughts....
Nothing beats just drawing strength from Him.
Loving Him ever more each day,

I am learning to focus on the higher calling...
let not little hindrances in life stops us from running for a greater cause!

Well, indeed when we let go of something, God doesnt shortchange us!
He is promising and ever faithful...
What is precious to us is precious to Him...

I have learnt that how hungry you are is real important man...
It matters! The hungrier you are for Him, then you draw more!!
So simple, just simple...

It was a real sweet sunday (:
Emceeing for Welcome Party was generally alright, very tiring! haha
(: But im glad Charleston Garrett Jamie enjoyed.

2 songs has been stuck in my head...
Deeper in Love and First!

Deeper in Love- Really really a good song.

There is a longing only You can fill
A raging temptest only You can still
My soul is thirsty Lord
To know You as I'm known
Drink from the river
That flows before your throne

Take me deeper
Deeper in love with You
Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
Take me deeper
Deeper than I've ever been before
I just want to love You more and more
How I long to be deeper in love

Sunrise to sunrise
I will seek Your face
Drawn by the Spirit
To the promise of Your grace
My heart has found in You
A hope that will abide
Here in Your presence
Forever satisfied

love,xin

every whispers.

2009-04-02T01:56:00.005+08:00

You hold the world with Your unfailing love.
The Universe will exalt You.
& Stars declaring your wonders far and wide.
Your love its amazingly majestic in my life.

I am awe-strucked by Your love...

Tonight... I feel very very loved.
Nothing else matters when You're here with me.

Thankful... just thankful...

Letter to God ..

♥xin

some kinda love ♥

2009-04-01T02:17:00.006+08:00

Woah, this 2 weeks has been really cool and all.
I've been spending more time with the girls and loving it (:
Need to start to work more on my assesment... no slack no time!!!
Tomorrow I will finish up as much as I can for my illustration!!! (promise, crossfingers)

Last week was really cool. Huig, Liwen and myself headed to Charmaine's to cook!
Initially we wanted to bake, but we realised that we dont have much time.
Thus we ended up having and enjoying awesome pasta prepared by Charmaine (:
It's really cool to just spend time with them and getting to know everyone of them better.
Now I know how Charmaine house look like, how is her family like... (: cool cool
I like her crib, its like cozy snuggly (I'll stay over one day Charmaine!!!)

So after meeting up with the 3 of them, I burst out in great laughter when i first saw Qi and Liwen... both of them had red clothing on them. The moment we stepped off the bus and waited for Charmaine to fetch us... I started laughing non-stop when I saw Charmaine from afar.. in RED shorts too.. cute to max man 3 of them (: (:
They really made me very happy with the red color. hehehehe. so cute la!
Its all coincidental some more... :oB
I insisted they take photos and yes yes.. there you go :o)

♥♥♥

Ohhhh, from Charmaine's condo, I remember seeing this uncle floating on the pool as well...
He looked a lil like.. scary.. but quite funny anyhow (: (: I took a secret picture of him too!
Hee hee hee (it's with charmaine...)

We headed to PP & got the ingredients !!! :o) so fun ohgay!
Headed back to her condo and Qi and I made cards while...
Charmaine became the Chef...
& Liwen (who was trying to learn how to cook pasta from Charmaine) became the supervisor...
Both of them were really dutiful..

Looks a bit weird here ahh. But its really tasty okay!!

I had my role too ok!! There was the chef, the supervisor right... Qi later became the dishwasher... and I was the.. taster.. HAHAHAHA. What a blissful role.

Wooo ♥ the sauce.

While everyone was busy in the kitchen, Huig was working hard squeeeeezing her creative juices out for these pretty cards (o: creative girl kekeke. hahahah :D

Dinner time (: All ready and Liwen serves us... heehehee...

& I have no idea what Qi is doing!!

& Charmaine sets the table :o)

TATAAAAAA!! Okay clearly, mine is the one with apple juice.
I felt so loved (: Most sauce most pasta. fei si wo le. hahahahaha

Diudiu! Here's a lovely photo of me & the loveliest people (:

We ate.. talked nonsense.. took photos...

Then I interviewed Liwen & Huig about Chef Charmaine's cooking...

Dingdong! Here's the result.

& for yours truly's review....

Charmaine ate reaaaaaally slow. (till we took more and more pics...)

They washed the dishes.. super sweet. Hahah cos' I like to cook & eat.
I dont like to wash the dishes.. hahaha

(: it was a really great dinner, to top it off we had strawberries and icecream.

We chilled out and rolled ard Charmaine's bed.. hahahaha.
Yupyup!!

It was really cool just spending time with them.
We shall do it again soon kay!! (:
Let's get more people to join the fun.. the love!! :o)
I'll cook for you all one day!! Promise! hahahah! :D

This is really what it is all about.
That's why I love doing what I am doing....

(: (: (:

Ohhh.
& on Sat all of us wore stripes. HAHAHA!

:o) Charmaine & Meeeeeeee!

It's cool.
Today's Pastoral meeting was awesome too.
Everything seems clearer and more set into place.
I am super duper excited.

Okay... I think I should go sleep now.. maybe wake up early tomorrow and be more productive.
Heehee..
I am sorry if you are feeling hungry after all the pasta photos :oB
heehehe..

♥ xoxo, Xin!

Fly

2009-03-25T11:30:00.002+08:00

Get ready,
We are ready to fly.

I have dreams.
When I am young I dream...
When I am older, I still wanna dream...
Keep your idealism alive! (:
What do you dream?

Side tracking, some of them said that when Yoko grows up,
She would be like me. HAHAHAHAH

(Yoko/Miko) I confess, I dont know who is who!!!
Can any of you tell?
They are so adorable. Huggersnuggle (:
I miss their long hair.
But they look as cute with their "Dora the explorer" short hair too (:

xoxo Xin

Look Ahead

2009-03-24T19:26:00.002+08:00

Woah, really love Pastor Phil's blog.
I wanna share this with you!

My thoughts are intrigued by his wisdom....
I was looking at one of his entries, he talked about

Isaiah 43:18-19
¹⁸ “ Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.
¹⁹ Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert.
... after reading it, I prayed a little and understood it further.

It intertwines pretty much with what Pastor Sy talked about on Sunday...

Pastor Phil mentioned about how at times we hold on to our past too much all the success, disappointments, bitterness, failures and sins that we miss out on what God has prepared and called us to do. This eventually affects our growth, and confidence... it kills opportunities that comes in our way. I would think it's like having the ball in your court but because your mind is so preoccupied with the goal that you missed, that you miss out on the chance you are given...
Man.. thats so so true. I dont wanna lose any opportunity to grow, to go closer to God!!!
Here is says, DO NOT REMEMBER THE FORMER THINGS!!!
Many times with natural tendencies we are always recalling the 'memories' that holds us back from growing.

"Forgetting is more difficult than remembering" Pastor Phil mentioned. The way to defeat our own minds and grow is when we can train our mind not to always be thinking about things that kills us on the inside. Dont let bitterness and pride kill your opportunities that is coming your way!

And almost often, we also do things OUR way and assume that it is God's way. There should be no such assumptions!!! Letting go of old ways, before God can come in and make things happen in His NEW ways...
It's just like what Pastor Sy mentioned too.. sometimes you just got to keep doing back to God and get rid of whatever flaws... whatever thoughts.. get it over thoroughly!!! Dunk & cleanse yourself over and over until you know you are totally ready for God to work in your life...

I am thinking about some situations I know... about some friends...
I ask you today, how near is your vision to you today? Or have you been living with/in past success? & some, are you not done with getting over a past soured relationship? getting over things you got upset and bitter about that caused you to distant from God?
Man... when God asked me those questions, I reflected and I spoke to Him...
i pray i pray everyone around me stand strong, have faith and believe and allow God to give you new opportunities...
Get out of your past! (:

Sometimes we think too much like I mentioned before in my earlier post...
Haha. I guess it is really the thought patterns, we spiral around the same issues and complicate them sometimes. We imagine too much sometimes.
But imagination is so powerful....imagine imagine in God...
You think your vision, you know your vision, you wanna make it happen.
Show it to God... your precious thoughts over your desires and .. most importantly your vision.

I thought the way Pst Phil interpreted the word "behold" word was so powerful...his revelations are totally woahhh. Pst Phil see things in a really different perspective.
He said "The future , the new is always something we "see". It is a vision. What do you see? We should ask ourselves this question everyday." Mannnnnn. A vision keeps us going indeed indeed!!!

And towards new things, we should always be open to experience it. God created these NEW things for a reason. New things are New. It might be unfamiliar to us, but we should not judge it just cos' so. Allow God to give us more "new things" and experience it!! God is a God of new....
Woah, I am excited. I wanna experience more new things that would come in my life...
It's new experience each time...
New revelations...
New songs....
New encounters..
Ahhh. My God is totally creative. Always creating. So co0ooOooool to max.

I am praying praying for myself to be ready to take on God's given opportunity.
To fly to fly to experience every new moments and encounters that would come!
I cant imagine my Christian walk being totally boring and I experience the same stuff everday man.... God is just so cool.

I am sorry if whatever I mentioned is a little all over the place...
I read it and just type whatever thats on my mind.
So perhaps from paragraph to paragraph it doesnt really linked up.... hehe (:
My spirit feels so stirred... encouraged... wooooot!! (:

Time to go work on my illustration...
I m attempting to be up earlier tomorrow to go jogging :D
hahahahaha.

Also, I am gonna listen more sermons etc this season!!!
Time to grow in the word of God...
Love it.

Out of here now!

xoxo, xin

musik

2009-03-24T18:57:00.002+08:00

Yummy Musik!
Songs I enjoi (:

Playlist1

Woah

2009-03-24T04:29:00.002+08:00

(I should be sleeping, its 4.34am, I have school at 9am, gotta prepare @ 7am.. haha now you know how I work... I am just done with my presentation, I think it is quite good... (: I just feel like blogging after reading a couple of cool blogs!)

Woah. I am totally blown away as I read Pastor Phil Pringle's blog on his revelations.
Check it out here
As you read, it is as if you are feeding yourself with God's words at the same time.. so cool..
It's so cool to blog, everyone is starting to revive their blogs...
Pastor Kong blogs too... Pastor Phil as well.. Pastor Josh Kelsey too...
Pastor Kong's blog is just powerful...
Pastor Phil's blog inspires...
Pastor Josh's blog causes me to reflect ponder and think...
It is cool so cool (: Most of us who blogs actually kinda enjoy writing ! (:
I enjoy writing! (:

Noni's "Welcome Aboard" made me realise that , hey this is it. Haha.
It's like.. OKAY NOW IS THE TIME.
I am excited about everything...
Conference with Qi and Liwen earlier.. they are abit crazy.. hahaha.
We are going to bake @ Charmaine's on Thu!! I am gonna incubate her mom! (: (:
So cool so cool.
I am ready to take whatever that comes.
With God it is possible...
With problems that doesnt kill me, it will make me stronger.
I know God is moulding me (: That's one real big fat encouragement.
Plus, I have really encouraging friends around me.. :D

Ahhh. Assessment is coming!
May is coming! (holidays holidays)
I wanna watch some local films during the holidays man.. I did research earlier and checked out on them.. all like so cool only.
Films like 15, The Mee Pok Man, Be With Me(watched in class before but I was too sleepy...) and Eating Air! Woooo.

Time for bed (:
I just feel very thankful and encouraged...

xoxo,xin

working on it

2009-03-21T02:53:00.001+08:00

It is not easy to just THINK simple as said.
I am working on it.
Especially my thought patterns.
The things that occupies my mind.

I am out, its 2.55am. Time for bed.
Long day tomorrow.
It's gonna be great.

love, xin

Clearer.

2009-03-20T13:01:00.002+08:00

Now with a clearer mind, less sleepy...
I shall blog properly.
Last night's was...
HAHAHAHHA.
(I wanna blog, but I wanna sleep too)

----

So anyway,

Recently I thought, many times we complicate situations and things around us.
Sometimes things are just THAT simple, but it is just a natural tendency that we actually choose to complicate it and confuse our mind, conflict our thoughts.

With whatever issues we have in hand, we oftenly twist it, turn, flip- and it ends up complicated.
Funny funny, sometimes we can keep things simple.
But sometimes a little noise in our mind can end up bugging us like forever.

Mentally it gradually becomes such a habit, a cycle with much confusions that fails to lead us back to clarity. Often, we always end up tired and filled with more doubts and questions that = to nothing but emotionally perplex.

Confession time, this is what I have been going through the past 2 days.
Much noise and much thoughts, I sought for someone to grumble and rant at.
No use.
Just as I begin to sit myself down, reflect and tried thinking clearly, God spoke.

"What matters? Your focus"

Woahhhhhh.
Totally taken aback and reflected with a clearer mind.
With all that complications, it led me no where.
I focused on something that led me no where- but to more confusion!
Whatever you focus on, will grow- Wendy once told me this.
Indeed. Focus your thoughts on complications it will grow to crowd your mind.
Focus them on what is more important allows you to be clearer minded.
Even if your worries are valid, dont worry! God saves the day.
Does it kill you? No? Then move on.

That's the reality. We need to learn to see what within ourselves, inner thoughts.
I am working to be better.
I am searching my insides.
I gotta grow to tackle my complicating mind. HAHA.
I REALLY have natural tendancy sometimes to just complicate simple things.
(Major AIYO)

Keep it simple.
Search your insides.

What about you?

xoxo, Love Xin

higher than my desires

2009-03-20T03:11:00.002+08:00

Last night I was highly disappointed with AhChew's Dessert.
Well, finally manage to caught up with Peishan for a lil (:
But while we were at AC's eating, the waitress was really rude.
There were a couple of us, but initially only shan & i ordered, and thus they showed us attitude.
& towards closing, they CHASE us away saying they are closing, and later turn their back and complained to other customers about us... tsktsk.

Looking down upon the youths?
We'll do mighty great things I say!

I am having much on my mind...
Quite tired of these noises... decided that I would might as well just leave it to God.
I gotta just trust and plan for what is to come.
Faith.

I am kinda too tired/sleepy to continue blogging.
Let's end this. Haha.

Life's just full of decisions and choices to make....
I guess sometimes I need to step out to make my point and to learn to be bolder.
(I am falling alseep in front of my laptop.)

Gdnight now.

xoxo,xin

Worth

2009-03-17T17:10:00.005+08:00

Just a random thought... sometimes...

In every individuals' life, we are given choices to make decisions upon our own life.

What Who What Which
Situations/People/Problems
are more worthy of our
Love/Time/Money/Focus/Attention

Unknowingly at times we subconsciously give that 'price-tag' to people around us.

We are constantly changing... is it fair that we judge and sometimes get too prejudice?
I am not perfect, but today as I come to think of this, I feel that it could be unfair to the people we judge sometimes...?

Well, chew on that thought...
it's random i know.

Maryse is beside me and she is being really cheeky. I think she abit siao.
( she said: "should say cute..." ) tsk tsk tsk
But nevermind, i still love her... hahahaha (:
She started to give me sheepish stares & later made her way towards me and talk gibberish. HAHA.

OHGAY. time to go now. (:

By the way,
ToChew: Ru is nice to me when I stayed over at her place. She gave me blanket, towel, clothes to wear... she even gave me chicken wings to eat.. HAHA

Love, xoxo Xin

proclaim the promises

2009-03-17T03:45:00.005+08:00

Woahhh, been really long since I posted! (:
Have been rather busy.
It's late it's lateeee. My thoughts are all over the place.

Currently at Ru's house..
( went to watch "Coming Soon" with a couple of lovely churchies (: )
She gave me chicken wings to eat :D & she's trying to choreograph her dance steps.
It's so cold here in the room... Haha.
Enjoy spending time with her talking nonsense tho.
We are comtemplating whether or not to go for jogging tomorrow morning. Hahaha...

Last week was hectic, but really fruitful.
In many ways I have learnt things and @ the same time increased in capacity.

The projects were all up for predicted grades, well, didnt score too well for all, but thank God i've got time to improve on them.
Specialism classes on Monday and Thursdays have started...
it's pretty much still alright now, I can cope. (:
Just one thing, I miss Questal, Boon, Hong, Ivan, Nes, Alvin already.
Well well, school would always just be school...

Tuesday's IC Graduation was funny, it ended well really unexpectedly.
Felicia is amazing man, we can work together with each other well and compliment each other's flaws and strength (:
Everyone worked hard to make it happen and I am glad it happened amazingly!

Friday was cool, it's been long we hung out as a CG and we did (: (:
Chompchomp was shiok & Wendy brought us to Dessert Bowl.
(: Yummmmmy desserts and great place to chill out (:

just feeling very thankful again for many many things in my life (:

Wendy is amazing, she's so sweet.
Thank you again Wendy! She bought me a Nike Bottle... becos...
HAHAH (yours truly aint really someone who likes to drink plain water)
But well, after she gave it to me, I got really encourage to drink water more. hehe.

The CG is great too, Yongkok recently just got a vision from God (:
Imma gonna do his followup tomorrow! (: It shall be good.

Pastors are back from Gold Coast (: missed them soooo much (:
Rinnah is so super cute. She grew taller, and she said i am her 'beloved friend'
heehee.

Count your blessings! (:

I feel so blessed bcos' I hold on to His promises and its even more powerful when it is being proclaimed! (: God spoke to me the other day about proclaiming His words and promises to bless us in EVERY area of our life (:
It was good and thus shared it as my offering sermon during CG. Haha.
Amazingly I didnt stammer as much nowadays when speaking/preaching to a crowd!
Yay... I will improve!

I cant think anymore about what to blog about.
Qi just came back from M'sia. We missed you alot!!
Liwen think its so quiet w/o you around (:

Alright, outta here now.
Ru is getting sleepy... but she still has her dance to settle...
I am freezing...

xoxo, love xin

Set aside time, clear up your mind

2009-03-04T20:13:00.003+08:00

Let's not be trapped in the past and move on (:

Drawing A was postponed to this Friday, and thus explain my absence for IS today.
I have been suffering the whole morning in pain ):
Roll in bed till late afternoon, got up and cook myself some nice sesame oil noodle (:
(my favvvvvvvvvourite chuqianyiding!)

I have not done much work other than updating myself with stuff from the learning portal.
Cos' my Adobe Reader just got fixed.
THANK YOU DALE!

): My assessment would end the latest!!! 30 April ):
After that long break mannnnnnn. I wanna go Mission Trip!!!

Right now, time to clear up my work, talk to Jane Allan soon.. talking about that,
lemme SMS her now.
(okay just did !)

Things are a whole lot better now at home, I am so so glad (:
Very very thankful as well.

Yours truly shall buck up too.

I am so thankful for many things.
If you are feeling extremely down, why not just think of something to be thankful about?
It'll be better (:

& I am feeling very assured and nevertheless very encouraged.
& of cos thankful to have my cousins in the same church as me!
(i know i've been repeating this 1001 times.)
Yesterday's short chat with Ivan while walking to the busstop made me feel very encouraged!
Sometimes, you just need to just keep going. Keep strikingggggg.
Run to your fig tree.

Have I mention that, kids are really sooooo adorable.
These are my little cousins (: cute right. Haha

and here's some photos from school...

when all else fades...

2009-03-01T04:24:00.002+08:00

Before I go to bed, just felt that I have to put my thoughts into place.
AI Conf has been really awesome, I've learnt so much.
And really, been so touched by all the works we as a church has been doing in people's life.
Through this two days, I have really been so reminded all over by God's love.

For every part of our life, God is just so interested to know more.
He is concern about every single part of our life.
I am thankful that He knows every part of my life...from every worries to anything.

Recently, I have been speaking to a friend of mine about his life lately.
He was sharing how aimless he feels, and he cant bring himself to trust God.
He dont believe that God could work things out...
He is so upset after some relationship issues and feels that there is no purpose and passion that drives him to do things that he would do anymore.
Just last week, I observed that he hurt himself.
As a friend, I feel so much for him.
Each time I share with him my thoughts and just try to listen to him and talk to him...
I pray silently that his heart would be soften and Jesus would turn things around just for him.
Life's so much more than all that.
Heartbreaks are sometimes inevitable.
But we grow from it and learn isnt it?
I hate to see how people are stuck stagnant holding on to past bitterness and sadness.
Lay aside every weight, RUN.

Life is not just about you. and your lost relationship.
There are so much people out there that longs to be in your position.
To have a choice to study. To learn things... to have friends...
Really, sometimes we just gotta stop being too inward looking.
The more we think about ourselves and our own life, we are so self-absorbed that we cant be bothered with others. GRRRRRR.

Nevertheless, I feel blessed to be here in my spiritual family.
Yes, it is about the relationships.. but we are all the way we are because of 1 cause.

Sometimes the truth remains. We are FIRST CALLED to be with God.
When the curtains are closed behind the stage, there's no one else, only just us and Him.
When everything fades, no hype no rahrahwowwow, He remains faithful.
When the Earth beneath us shakes, it's His hands that keeps us safe.

I am very thankful what He has assured me.
My family would know Christ. The whole family would be saved.
If it can happen to Ivan's family, it can happen to mine .

I am just very very thankful...

I think I would go pray and worship abit... goodnight world.

Tomorrow's last session would be fantabulous. I cant wait....

& then, school calls on Monday. HAHAHAHA

xoxo,love Xin

you live the life you want

2009-02-25T18:53:00.002+08:00

I have finally came to a decision for my choice for my specialism.
Well, let's hope all is good and I will pray super hard and work harder now that I'd promote.
I must!
Time to finish up overdue work and talk to Jane soon due to my not-too-good attendance.

It's the independent week, I have done my trafficlightcollage, going on to poetry soon.
I shall finish up my essay research and hopefully finish it tonight.
Gotta hurry update the fashionstocklist & send to Sam soon, or I'd have to chop my head off.

Capacity is not mere talk.
It is your ability to handle and juggle well with responsibilities you have.
The ball is in your court, you make it happen.

I went to the Doctor's today to get antibiotics for my face ):
Goodbye acne, I so gonna get rid of you all.
Now, I will never dare to eat mutton with all the spices again.
Opted for ButterChicken the other day when we went to have lunch.

I think I kinda get what Mary said about how ArtsMngmt would grow me and develop me.
I would be forced out of my comfort zone to get things done...
I experienced it just right at the briefing already.
I knew NO ONE and we were to get into groups already.
Tskk. But all's good when we just step out.
It wasnt that scary.. (:

I realise that I stammer quite abit when I have to speak to a crowd.
Either that or I would speak too fast.
Gotta practise on the way I speak man. Hahhaa.

It's been long since I update here and that's because I'm really busy lately.
I cant wait for April to end and there comes my long holiday.

Photos lacked entries lately because yours truly is quite lazy. Haha.

Situation at home is getting better, but still not too good.
But thank God things got better anyhow.

All the best you Poly people who are having your exams (:
And to some who have ended, enjoy only luh! hahaha.

Oh yes, Sunday was awesome.

I am out to do more work now. gdbye!

xoxo, love xin

tired.

2009-02-13T11:32:00.002+08:00

school has been really rather hectic.
i am quite tired but just gotta keep going.

life's pretty much quite crazy lately.
with all the mad things happening around me.

super chui.
laptop died. system down. i am using noel's/elyn's laptop now..

but thank goodness,
i know i am not alone.

arts management or visual comm?

turn 123 rounds, we're growing up

2009-02-01T03:22:00.002+08:00

On Friday we headed to MadJack@Paradiz to celebrate Derrick's 21st.
Ben and Jerry's after which (thanks for the treat derrick)...

---

I miss God so much, today's service was so good.
Every burden and thoughts, the noise in our head, the pain the joy...
Everything in our life, He knows it all. He never miss out on anything in our life.
Our darkest little secret, our tiniest problem, our heartaches...
I am so glad I have DaddyJesus in my life.

This is a season I'll not give up doing the things I am doing...
Despite whatever problems or tiredness, pushing on and just going would just be it.
I wanna grow in capacity and abilities.
Wisdom Stature Anointing.

Well, I see that it wouldnt come easy.
But with God all things are possible isnt it?
Rough times with God are never tough.
I am thankful...

As we grow up we are faced with so many more issues in life.
More responsibilities...more personal issues... more emotional struggles...
Complications come along, sometimes you wish things are simpler.
You and I get insecure at times, become oh so complicated. But what's the whole point?
I have learned that sometimes, it's the best to see the bigger picture before making false conclusions and having stupid thoughts and building noise in our mind.
Rely on God. Grow up!!!

I am turning twenty, wow... hahaha.
I am still learning how to embrace every circumstances and situations in life
I'll conquer it all!!! v^^v

Well, big fat irritating elephant might occupy your mind at times.
Pray, believe and have faith. That fat thing would be off you soon (:

And to you,
i dont know if you would ever read this, or would even know that i am referring to you.
i really pray that i would see you back in church real soon.
i miss seeing you around and i miss the old onfire you.
life's not all about making money, i know you know it.
life's not just another show. another story to tell.
there's so much more so much much more.
come back to Daddy soon.

& i believe You'll make a way.

Goodnight now all.

♥xoxo xin

(ONE QUESTION: SHOULD I CUT BACK BANGS? TAG ME THANKEWZXZ)

you are you

2009-01-30T03:50:00.001+08:00

Be still

Bigger are His ways.
Higher than our ways.

Brings you further

2009-01-30T03:23:00.002+08:00

I MUST start my WHITE PROJECT SOON!!
Otherwise next friday i got to parade around an invisible headgear during the WHITE PARADE DAY. 0.0
I dont like 3D to max . zzz.

Recently over CNY I watched the show- Hot Shot,籃球火 on SCV.
Haha, Sis recorded them on her Hubstation.

She said its quite hard to find the episodes online as it is very restricted.
Oh well. So I am stuck at Episode 11 on the SCV.
It's pretty nice anyway. Hahaha.

When was the last time I watched a Taiwan series show? Hmmm...
I think it was Gongzhuxiaomei or something?

Anyway, in 籃球火 there's this song thats quite nice.

Adrian Fu's - I'll be fine 符致逸 - 真的, 我沒事
(youtube!)

Hahha. Nooo, not emo. But it's just rather nice (:

Tough times will get you stronger.
Those who doesnt fall during tough times, will grow stronger.
Through each and every circumstances we learn and we see things in bigger ways.
Uncertainties will pass over, God will take over.
Vision keeps you going.
Your convictions give you a clearer mind.
Up times or down times,
Thank you Jesus ...

IC Training today was good (:
Never fail to learn much from Yassy & also Jianming!

Evryone should fast from L4D hahahahahahahahahhahaha.

gdnight now.

♥xoxo xin

坚强不只是种伪装

mind boogling

2009-01-28T05:31:00.003+08:00

Well the past few days ever since the Eve of Chinese New Year has been pretty insane to max.
It's mind boggling.
Physically draining.
Crazy.

Eve & First day of Chinese New Year saw myself and Sis (Jieru) heading home only at 7am in the morning. It's crazy.
Too much of Left4Dead. It's gonna stop...
I promised only 1 hour of it today & I am glad I did.
Explains why I am home earlier today (Tue)

Last year was madness to crazy to siao.
This year is less crazy but still abit siao.

I've sang KTV, watched movie, played bowling, played arcade and ... PLAY LEFT4DEAD.

If this doesnt stop anytime soon its gonna be harmful man. haha.
--

All that aside, I hope you guys are enjoying your little holiday.
Melvin and Twino are going into army later on...
I dont think I'll be able to send them off.
Probably going with mom for visitation .

-

How's your harvest this year? Mine isnt very good...
Haha. Old already. Not much angbao ahhh.
Jieru, Jingfen and myself brought Ryan(my cousin) out to play for awhile the other day.
We talked to him about Jesus and it was sweet.
Ryan asked very very innocent questions and it was so pleasant to hear.
I pray one day & I believe he will get to know about Jesus who will protect him from ghosts that he is afraid of (:

Jieru and myself went to Weiqi's (Ru's JC goodgoodgood friend) for visitation.
It was all nice (:
She just came back from Shanghai, still as loud and friendly (:
Her whole family is so engaging and lovely.
It was a good visitation, it made Chinese New Year finally feel like Chinese New Year.

-

Seriously, Chinese New Year this year totally aint the same as the past few.
Dont really know why but the whole atmosphere and feeling and excitement about it isnt there.
Dad's out of town now...
I only visited 3 places this year.
I have less than 10 Angbaos.
I dont feel super excited due to many reasons (e.g/ dad overseas)

Wee hours of the day saw us walking around & all.
I had a good talk with my sister & cherylchanhm yesterday.
It's just awesome to know that sometimes you have people around you who understands and they are just there for you.
I hate it when people dont take you seriously.
Deep talks are nice & helps to clear a boggled mind.
& with God its even better cos' you know you'll never lose yourself to anything.

Not much photos this year. Just not in the whole mood of it to snap and all...
I am just very very tired now.
From all the hangouts and stuffzxz.

Off to get some rest.

♥xoxo xin

You're bigger.
& we are first called to be with You.

Chinese New Year Eve Eve

2009-01-25T00:24:00.006+08:00

Whenever Chinese New Year is round the corner, it calls for Reunions.
I had my first with the Ezone Leaders and church builders and a couple of others the other day in church (: We had buffet and I hosted with Furong at the beginning.
It was all nonsensical but fun nevertheless (:
I am gonna try my best to talk lesser about food in my entries...
Hahahahha, Ivan said my blog is all about food!
But it's due to CNY!!! This season there's so much of food to be mentioned.

Anyhow, we went for bowling after that with Garrett @ Marina Square.
Headed to arcade while some had a game of pool.
Chilling outside 7-eleven when we are done and headed home late.

School has been fine and I had my first game of Left4dead the other day.
I screamed alot.
It was fun anyway (:
I'll play it again!!!

On Thursday after CG headed to Hongkong Cafe with Michelle and Eli.
Long awaited... we finally had some quality time together.
Catching up and all (:

Thanks Mich for lending me yr phone while you are away at Harerping (:

Yesterday a few of the teamers went bowling & it was pretty alright.
Headed to newton to get from Mich her phone and also to see Nich's botak head (:
I WANNA SEE MY COUSIN SOON MAN!

Today I stayed home with the family.
Mom got me to do what I do yearly...
Decorating the plants with red furry thingys and angpaos and whats not.
I decided then to paint on my wall (: (: (:
Since a few years ago I wanted to do so... but did not...
UNTIL TODAY!!
TATA :D No more boring wall.
Love the birds.

After all the painting and chores @ home,
We headed to Grandma's for dinner & later went shopping for Xinyi's clothes.

What a boring entry I know.
Hahaha.

So...
I have some decisions to make really soon.

Enjoy and Happy Chinese New Year!
Hope you get loadsa angpowx!!

♥xoxo xin

Skittles Rainbow

2009-01-20T01:56:00.006+08:00

After the hectic weekend, most of us ( me & the teammates ) decided to self-declare a break today since we only have 3D.
So I really went school over the weekends. zzz
Thank God all things worked out some how the mural is completed (:

Day was spent with the family today (:
Well it was really awesome, we hardly spend time like this together already.
It's almost like how it was when I was much younger...
We go out everyweekend as a family (:
I laughed alot and I enjoyed myself.
And I am glad Ahma was with us too (:
She laughed quite abit at my nonsense photos and its all sweet.

We went for the massage thing which we bought package for LONG ago during cozycot event (:
It was quite shiok :D
Buffet @ The Buffet - M Hotel (thanks to both sisters' treat) was great.
The food was satisfying C:C:

Beware, image heavy below...

Today's awesome...
I am very sleepy now and I am heading to bed.
I think during lessons' break tomorrow the boys are gonna pull Questal and me along to play Left4Dead. Hahahah.

I am having some thoughts about some things right now.
Ack ack.

Okay goodnight now love.

♥ xoxo, xin

Oh happy day

2009-01-17T02:12:00.004+08:00

*snap fingers in rhythm*

(: Sometimes it just takes little simple things in life to make you feel like you are on cloud nine.
It takes just a little effort to show some loving man (:
Little acts and little expressions.

A smile on one's face brings much joy to another person.
I was happily observing 2 brothers eating away Mac's Icecream on Thursday.
What a sweet sight, the way they share and lick the icecream (:
Super cute to max (:
Love looking at kids eat/lick icecream, cute to max.

I feel super shiok this week, I started followup with Yanrui and Yongkok.
They are both super amazing man.
Desire to know God more (:
Yanrui will definitely rise up to be a caring and loving woman in the house of God!!!
She's so sweet, kids will love her man (: Children Church yessssss girl? (:
Yongkok is just so eager to learn. He loves the word of God...
Oh man, did I mention?
We gave him a Bible last weekend...
On Wed when I asked him about his BRP, he told me he is already at Exodus now!!!

(: (: E21's 9 this weekend. Not too bad but can be better !
Love how things are going in the CG man! (:

Ahhh, 10am i school tomorrow all the way till the late evening...
I hope the team would be effective and we can finish earlier before 5pm!
(: But anyway, I love my team the way it is.
Well, they are all nonsensical, quite crazy people, but when it comes to working hard...
I see that we back each other up and we help each other.
That's whats amazing about these group of classmates I have in school.
They are not the most perfect people, but they are awesome nevertheless (:
& I just pray I pray for what I desire to see in each and everyone of their lives.

Much projects deadlines coming up...
But I should be able to cope fine.
Well at least I hope so... Hahah (:

Outta here now and off to bed. Long day ahead tomorrow.

♥ xoxo, Xin

Food, food, MORE FOOD.

2009-01-14T14:07:00.003+08:00

I was looking through my archives of photos, & I realised that in 2008 we celebrated Ru's birthday over steamboat, and in 2007 we celebrated her birthday over steamboat too.
One was at her place, and 07 was in Bugis.

I overslept today and miss school. Shucks to max.
Decided not to go IS in the afternoon either, IS is really nonsensical.

School's getting hectic.
This weekend's gonna be the painting of the mural and I hate the idea that my weekend is taken up by them.
Friday, Saturday and Sunday... like morning till evening.
Oh gosh ):

And next week I gotta finish up my White Project as it is due in March..
I dont wanna do my work during CNY (!!!)

Ahh yes.
After next week's steamboat after steamboat,

I am gonna grow soooooo fat.
These are confirmed.
Monday I'll be spending time with the family...
We'll finally be going to the massage that we bought package for long ago.
After which, we would be going for a buffet at M Hotel ( I have no idea where .. hahaha )
Tueday there's steamboat with Ezone leaders.
Wednesday steamboat again over at Samantha's with Fashion.
Fei si le.
& Sunday, Steamboat again for Reunion dinner with the family.
Woahhhhhh.

What if I grow so fat I cant fit into my new tops?
Hahahah.

CNY calls good news for some and bad news for few.
Good news for people who recently got into the army;
(Nich, Elgin, Jemtan...) cos' they would be able to book out!
& bad news for JO and Melvin cos' they would be going in army on the 3rd day of CNY..

Ahhh.
Back to projects for now.

♥ xoxo, Xin

& love becomes my calling

2009-01-12T00:15:00.002+08:00

2009 has started off really great.
It's going to be the 3rd week of January.
Time passes by really really quickly.

This year's Chinese New Year is really much earlier...
I am pretty much done with some shopping with Momsy the other day (:
J and I headed to Chinatown with Dad&Mom earlier.
The night market is so nonsense, they sell like anything and evrything!
& boring it can get as well...
all the goodies are like Taiwan Muachi, pudding, jelly whateverrr.

I am gonna gear myself up to be more prepared than ever for growth.
This is a year to be better at what I am good at.
To grow, to be an expert! (:

Xin really loves Discipleship class with Pastors! (:
Yesterday we had a session with Pastor Lia and it was totally awesome.
I felt so so previlege to be sitting in that little room, listening to Pastor Lia.
Pastor is just so transparent to us, telling us stories after stories about their lives.
Their personal thoughts and ideas towards issues in life and things in life.
Their amazing brilliant solutions to our problems.

I just feel very very much inspired after each Discipleship class with Pastors every week (:
Sweet (:

Garrett and Wendy are just great leaders as well.
They are my role models (:
Garrett is always always Mr.Busy and he is always so quick and loving hardwork (:
Wendy's mighty perseverance and her strength never fails to keep me going...
Makes me want to catch up with her (:
Despite thunderstormy bad times, Wendy being Wendy, she is strong and mighty.
I love my Pastors and leaders.
Oh, and I definitely love Rinnah alot alot too (:

--

Last night I was just thinking and self-reflecting abit about my life and where I am now.
Prayed about it and I think I am pretty clear what areas to change and in which area of my life do I need to be tighter in and it is always the most important to rely on God.

I pretty much cant wait to have heart to heart with Huig and Liwen...
But school hours are not allowing me to free myself to meet them just yet.
Ahhhh.
This week is gonna be quite packed with projects and maybe followups.
I dont think I am going school tomorrow though.
I am not done with White, and the presentation on Tuesday.
Too fast too furious!
Hahahah.

My cousin Elgin just got enlisted into the Army on Friday at 730am!
I feel so bad, like a really lousy cousin.
I overslept and didnt send him off!!! hahaha
& Nich went in as well on Friday...
Oh yeah, JemTan as well on.. Wednesday was it?
Hope they are not being ill-treated yet (:

Anyway, awesome awesome.
Wow, I am really amazed by Yongkok (:
He has only been in church since Christmas...
He's really someone who is so hungry for God's word, hungry to know God!
(: It's just such a lovely sight to see new people loving God so much (:
Yongsing lent 'Fourth Dimension' to him last week and this week he has already finished reading the book! Amazing ay.
I am going to start followup with him this Friday and I am really quite excited.

E21's gonna come to pass to be the way I visioned it to be...
A CG of people after God's heart...

2009's gonna be amazing.
A time of stretching.
School's more hectic, but I kinda like it more this year (:
I need to just learn how to juggle abit...

I am very excited of what the future holds (:

Ohhh,
and it brings great comfort to see people coming back to God again.
Or people just getting back on track with Him again...
it's a joy (:

I am out now..
very very sleepy.

I promise to chiong my projects tomorrow!

(!!!) - To all of you getting O level results tomorrow.
I'm praying for you (:
Be it the best or worse, God loves you unconditionally ohgay!

(: Goodnight & Keep safe dearests.

♥ xoxo, Xin

Love Today

2009-01-07T02:28:00.003+08:00

I am about to doze off...
The drowsy effect of my cough syrup is getting on me.

Soon many of the people I know would be owned by the SAF.
Tskkk.

School has been fine with the mates.
Selena i miss you though. But still cool (:
CCS today was disgusting because of the change.
I dont like no scoobydoo and I hate it when people picks on me.
Doesnt like it even more when a college student is treated like a,
WHAT?
Primary school kid.
I'll gladly tell you my story if you would wanna ask me why face to face (:

Dad's birthday is coming.
God I pray he would visit the doc's soon.
I am worried and I chose to keep safe.

The recent happenings has revealed to me that,
really...
Cherish people around you and Love them Today.

It's not super duper easy.
But, even Im' trying to love...
Even when one's not perfect.
Cos' we aint no saint ourselves.

Im out and off to bed now.
Cant bear with it any longer...

School projects are coming in....

xoxo, ♥ Xin

A Dream for a Decade

2009-01-05T02:23:00.008+08:00

We keep running and we keep going.
There's the fire that keeps us burning.
We'll keep striking, keep going, strengthening our stakes.
We do what we do best, we'll be expert at what we are already good at.
There is a vision there is a goal there is a cause, this is what I am living for (:
& I totally love it.

Yours truly experienced one of the most amazing weekend ever.
The year truly started very well.
Pastor Lia sermon was a-m-a-z-i-n-g.
The Ethos of our church.
There was just that click of connection that happened this weekend amongst the church DNA, leaders and the newer people in this Home (:

Many times in life, the world thinks of many things in transaction terms.
Well, sad to say, sometimes even in relationships and families.
But it is only when I've stepped into heart of God, I've experienced the genuineness of people.
The love the care the joy.
I mean, I cant begin to tell you how happy my 3 years going 4 in heart of God has been.
It's been such a exciting rollercoaster ride.
More exciting than that perhaps (:
I've seen people coming and people going.
Stepping in and stepping out of their destiny in God.

Looking around me, and thinking about the loveliest people I am closer to...
it's a sweet thought.
I am glad I am running this race with them.
Truly it is about doing life together.

It's so sweet to still be talking to Cheryl Chan Huimin like crazy friends (:
We used to be CG mates! Even in the same team! (: Chan ah chan... ♥ you long time!
& Seeing how Adri has grown tremendously is a great sweet victory to me.
She's one amazing leader and her CG is powerful (:
& Pammy! My first friend in church!
The one whole build my foundations in this church strongggg (: She's around, becoming prettier than ever...
Worship Leading and being Rinnah's favourite Little Pammyyyy.
Ohhh.
It's sweet it's amazing. I feel such adrenaline talking about people people people.
People are precious (:
And Nicholas Lee! He was in same team as me too! (:
I remember telling him this Christmas when I gave him his card-
"Eh, WE WERE CG mates! Friends for 3 years plus already horrrr!"
He's now SCGL, loving God loving his people... (:
Charlalaaaaaaaaa! She's around, we do crazy things in fashion togetherrrrr (:
Esther Heng! Wowowowow. Little girl grown up to be pretty and artistic the way she likes it now. She's one amazing girl and seeing how she is now makes me smile (:
& then there's Zach, now a CGL...Sean Ethan doing great in drums in usher...

Oh such joy (: They are still around, they are still doing great things for God.
They had their ups they had their downs, but they hang in there & God make things happened.

My amazing friends (just to name some) who have always been just there to hear me rant, or just hang out...

Ru the blair, Chew dorota(spell? hahahha), Elgin my lovely cousin, Elyn ( i still love you alot), Brian my Lil' brother, Michelle you have been so awesome, Sinfei my dear Vitagen, Gonghua the Meiji (SinGong, funny hor.. we only got close that time at Ru's house. Oh man, over steamboat!!) , Steph my fellow sjc girl (: , Huishan always eat my food, Hweeyee super whiny, Xing super yaya, Lisa always irritate me with KS, Fedora is amazing, the NG team is amazing.. Chloe who has just become my recent loveliest friend around, Maryse who always makes me feel so encouraged with her cg stories etc...
So many many people to name, cos' they are just too good to be true.
(but it's true!!!!)

---

This week was one of the most amazing.
E21 broke through and we finally hit 10!
Huiqi and Liwen are amazing really.

Huiqi has just grown so much so much ever since the e2 restructure previously.
Qi is no longer the noisy her speaking gibberish, but now she speaks with such faith.
Her hunger and willingness made her grow.
Everytime when I get her to do me a card, or to arrange a meeting, she takes everything with such willingness.
Corrections are not rejections and she has learnt not to crumble at corrections now.
The Huiqi now is one with such open-heart, willing to take corrections and discipleship and just grow from it (: It's just sweet.
School has recently started, she is juggling more plus she has her N's this year.
But she gladly takes more responsibilities and told me she wants to grow in capacity!
She's my great great support in the CG (: Thanks alot Huiqi (:

Liwen!! I remember how she first came, how we had breakfast with her at Tampines Mall, we watched some MUMMY Movie, she was being baptise in the Holy Spirit and feeling so joyful and teared after that... (: She has truly grown.
From the Liwen who doesnt bother much, just coming on weekends.. not doing much..
She's amazing.
No longer just the hearer of the word, but now a Do'er.
She no longer just talk about evangelising to her friends but now she really go out there and invite them.
During services when I am on ministry, Huiqi and her would just take charge and talk to the people (: Amazing girl.
She's now a great treasurer in the CG!
The other time, she was suppose to go Night Safari with her friends, but because Wendy called for a meeting with the treasurers and birthdaycoordinators etc...
She forsaked the outing and went for the meeting instead !
I was really surprised as the old Liwen will not do that.
When I asked her she told me "I think the meeting is more important!"
This is the true spirit.

Charmaine and Gwen they make me smile(:
Seeing Jasmine and Amy this week is so so awe-someeeeeee.

With them, the year started off well.
And it will keep going great.
E21 will grow (:

I am a happy leader.
I am a happy disciple of Pastors (:

--

The weekend was very packed with meetings etc.
Sat after service, I had dinner with the girls..
We went quite insane and halfway I had to run up for Publications meeting (:
Headed home after that.
& Today after service and giving the Zone's belated Christmas Present to Pastors,
I hurriedly prepared my stuff for Wendy for Garrett's meeting, and stuffed a Tuna sandwich into my mouth and headed for Discipleship class with Pastor How.
Wow, I am totally blown away and I've learnt alot from Pastor (:
Love it.
After which, Quek and I joined Garrett's meeting immediately.
We talked about the integrations and the CG and its all amazing.
I like being this busy.
I feel so accomplished this weekend (:

Okay its 3.16am now..
I have school.
I am missing lecture and reaching school by 11am.
See you mates around (:

Off to bed.
xoxo,♥ Xin

Oh, White Rabbit

2009-01-02T22:59:00.006+08:00

Ohh, 2 more days to school.
Lufi just texted us earlier to remind us about the lecture on Monday.
Hahaha.
There are 1001 things I have yet to do before school start.
Projects are screaming for me but... I aint doing much.
This spells d-i-e on the 5th. Hahaha.

Aww.
Anyway, here's my pretty diary.
It was plain, ugly black with some gold metal thing on the corners...
only $3.95 from Popular, I got it cos' it've got a full view of the whole month,
and it's spacious enough for my daily plans (:

Now, it's pretty with zebra prints and furry texture.
Did not like the plain short black ribbon either so I added the purple and pink (:
Yay (:

& Anyway, CNY is really early this year.
It's during the end of January.
Mann, that's really quick.
But Momsy said no buying of clothes this year :\
Tsk, I hope that aint gonna happen.
But one thing for sure...
NO WHITE RABBIT CANDY!
I was watching the news.
Due to the earlier china milk products etc...
NO WHITE RABBIT CANDY THIS CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Aww, the nice tasting candy I love so much since young!
Rawr.

Oh well. I stayed home today.
& I am having cough and indigestion.
Well, at least I THINK it's indigestion.
The more I eat, the space right below my ribcage feels so painful.
Like stuck. Tskz

I am having major craving for Chompchomp's Mango&Choc Pudding.
It's super duper uber nice.
And I gave an increase to it's 'niceness' and value after the last time I had it (:
I like the almond one very much too!
Okay, I need to stop talking about food now.

Im gonna go check out GoJane's for shoes to get for CNY perhaps...
Goodbye for now loves.

xoxo♥,X

Hi New Year

2009-01-02T00:28:00.018+08:00

Amidst the balloons, cheers and shouts...
Im truly thankful for everything in my life.

Really amazing, and I cant help but just smile.

He has been sweet and so awesome to me.
I thank God for the best church,
fantastic Pastors great leaders and loveliest mates around me.

2009 is here, I am absolutely thrilled.

All my troubles and crazy thoughts aside,
things look sweet, you you and you are so beautiful and sweet.
In everyone's imperfection, there's always still sometimes beautiful (:

& I really, would thank God even for my parents.
Well, they do irritate me alot at times...
however yesterday before I headed to church for the countdown,
I felt very snuggly and warm on the inside.

Well, I went to the mall with my mom the day before.
I saw how she really has the family on her mind all the time...
We went to a shop, she saw something she really like,
but upon looking at the pricetag, she put it back without hesitation.
With the situation at home right now, I think she's a super strong woman.
I respect my mom although I quarrel with her at times.
But I'm gonna learn to be nicer to her.
Like today, I came home after the whole countdown...
I lost my voice, she immediately made LuohanguoDrink for me (:
My mom's a wonderful woman huh? (:

---

I headed to church earlier for a meeting and later met up with Qi and Gwen.
Liwen and Mark came later but all of them went up for movie & so..
Jaslyn and me went around eating and taking pictures and until Charmaine came,
I watched her play DDR. Hahahah(:

Then and there was the HeartofGodGameShow and mannnnnnn, it was...
Classic. Hilarious :D

Countdown startedddddd.
Loads of balloons, fun joy yellings screamings.
Camera and flashes
Loves and hugs.
Water gun being shot every where (ahem chewting)
Sweaty us, sticky us, messy hair...
Thanksgiving and excitement for the future (:

Wish you were here (:

&&& (:
I really really love my cousins ♥

I thank God for every single one of them who are in church with me.
It's such a privilege.

Got tired, rested, went supper, prata, and after prata...
I went rather hyper.
"Trilala-lala Baba, Trilala-lala Nyonya"
(: Got back to church, showered and rested in the office with Wendy.
Woke up this morning, packed my stuff ,
and fellowshipped with Dexter whom I have not spoke to for a long time.
He was playing the guitar when I found him and we started talking nonsense.
I whined about wanting to eat hotcakes and as waiting...
10am.. I fell asleep...
11plus I woke up, afraid that there would be no more hotcakes!

When we headed downstairs, i went to Macs while the rest headed to Kopitiam first.
Hallelujah! Last set of Hotcakes with Sausage awaiting for me :D :D
Happy girl. what a good way of starting off my 2009 :D

(: Headed home, upload and did up my diary. Next post for my diary k (:
It's so pretty now (: ♥

Alright, im off for now.

xoxo, ♥X

NOTE TO SELF: SCHOOL STARS ON MONDAY XIN!

NOTE TO ALL: BRP HAS STARTED!

):dreadskool

2008-12-31T03:45:00.001+08:00

& suddenly I so dread school to start on the 5th.
School with loads of projects.
Lessons without Selena.
Forever being 'bullied' by the guys.

Sel, wish you could be there.

2009... in a few hours.

2008-12-31T03:24:00.003+08:00

3.24am

Still awake.
Supposedly the last post to be my last for 2008, ha ha but whatever.
I kinda like this new layout.
Simple brown, simple (:

I stay awake, still pondering about some stuffs.
Certain things that has been bothering me since the weekend.
But well I choose to leave it to God.

Sometimes it takes awhile to peel open the onion
To know a person's heart.

& you and I we are not perfect.
& the fact is that the truth hurts sometimes, but take it.
You'll learn and you'll grow.

I wish I could speak to someone who would willingly listen now.
Someone who would totally understand.

Again, just being very thoughtful.

Keep safe love.

Last post for the Year 2008

2008-12-30T01:15:00.003+08:00

This is probably my last post for the year 2008.
So it shall be long despite me not feeling the best due to my fever.
2009 awaits and it's gonna be a blast exciting year.

Sorry that I've been missing in action, have been either too lazy to blog,
otherwise really busy and caught up with many other things.

2008 was amazing, but 2009's gonna be even better.

Im quite lazy to mention in details what has happened over the past few weeks since i last blogged.
Would post up some photos later on.

Let me slowly rewind and think about what to blog.

Today I slept the whole day.
Thanks to my fever I feel like I wasted a whole day, not being able to meet Sel,not being able to meet Wendy for leaders meeting.
My neck feels like there are 1001 gold necklaces hanging on me, and it is sucha disgusting feeling. My head feels like it is as heavy as a metal ball.
But the fever have subsided.
I have not showered ..I know im gross, but this happens only when I am sick.
there's that disgusting after taste of food in my mouth, and i have difficulty just swallowing my saliva. Dont like it...
Please pray for my speedy recovery.

Wed's friends night still awaits me to have some fun and spending quality time with the people.
Things are happening and I am happy.
Christmas was awesome and I managed to do many many cards (:
Seeing loads of salvations and things happening makes me happieeeeee jumpieeee :D

Thinking about Huig, Liwen, Gwen and Charmaine makes me happy.
Everyone of them are lovely individuals God so love (:

Christmas eve was spent with the people and rushing cards.
Christmas night ended watching home-movies with chew steph and all-
and eating weird tasting meegoreng twin cooked.
(good effort lah twin) hahahaha

Post Christmas was spend getting presents for Garrett and Eli & heading to the Isetan private sale with Ru&Jt

Last service of the year was fantabulous and I headed home earlier than usual with Elyn & already feeling quite sick.

I got home and slept all the way till like 11plus in the morning, settled some New Gen stuff and headed back to slp and slept all the way till 8plus after taking my medication.

My head is pounding now.... ):

I am really glad to be given so much opportunities over this year.
God is amazing and really awesome.
I've been through the ups and the downs over this year, more of ups actually.
This year has been one of the best so far (:
Going back to school and getting more serious than before..
Doing more pastorally and its just sch---weeeeeet.
I love Pastors , Garrett & Wendy, thank you for always believing in me
This one year I have witnessed people rising and growing,
and also people turning away, falling back and not wanting it enough.
Whatever it is, i am glad I am still around, running this race, doing what I am doing.
Plowing and growing.
Gain some awesome friendships, knowing people better.
(:

Now, I just hope things would get better in the fam.
It's getting all quite insane and the sister would get what i mean.

My eyes are closing again...
But I refuse to close my eyes...
HAHAHA sounds so emo'ish.
But noooooo. its just becos' im sick :B

Side track abit, I have yet to get my 2009 diary!
I need to get one plain one and wrap it with my zebra cloth. Hahaaaaaa
Plan life live right.

Goodnight now earthlings.

Life's good.
Enjoi the peekturezx

Sow seeds, Build Walls (:

2008-12-14T02:23:00.003+08:00

CHRISTMAS IS COMINGGGGGGG
(: Guess who's back back back, back again-gain-gain.
Sorry for the hiatus (:
But anyhow, pardon how I really sound quite hyper now at 2.26am.
I dont just sound hyper, I am in a rather high-spirited state now (:
Things has been happening so quickly lately, I have been really busy.
But loving every bit of it.

Despite and beyond certain hurtful truths about someone that I just had to find out,
that CANT bring me down (:
Cos' there are so many happening things bigger than THAT.

This week has been a blast.
AMT was awesome.
Waking up at 4am for Prayer Meeting was crazy but really amazing.
I have been put into positions to take charge and make things happen.
Have spent quality time knowing more of my churchies.
(: It was a goooood and I learnt so much from Pastors and Leaders.

I have been busy with my Publications and NG stuff recently as well.
Boy am I excited for Christmas as well as NG launching all over again (:
We've rested enough, now its time to get going.

I enjoy what i do now (:
Knowing people and spending time.
Doing followup and all (: I can just keep doing ittttttt manzxz.

Gwen is amazing and I am so proud of her.
Radical night was ... RADICAL.
I was tearing away just being reminded about the foundations this church was build upon.
Liwen is fantastic too. I know she's gonna grow (:

Today we had a fantastic service and Flashback80's90's after service.
We danced, we sing, we played old school eraser games, and we took loadsa photos
Superrrrrrr fun seeing how everyone dressed up funnily etc.
More photos are up on my facebook but here are some (:

& I love Charmaine and Gwen (in photooooooo)

love (:

(: blow wind blow

2008-12-08T13:10:00.003+08:00

I really love such Monday Afternoons.
When I need not bother much about school...
The weather is cool. Great for snuzzy comfy quilt (but no, xin no lazing in bed)
After going to sleep at 6.30am, i woke up at around 11plus.

Now now, time to plan and think (:
Meeting in church later with Wendy ! (:
I am really excited about everything.
New grounds, plow and grow.

The ball is now in my hand, im gonna run with it.
Focus is the word this season (:

I walk stand run with the His promises (:
He never fails (:

Anyway, have i mentioned before that my mom has been cooking porridge so so often!
She just cooked it.
I am having it now as lunch, but it's all good in this chilly weather!

I was just thinking about the other areas of my life other than Pastoral and in church etc.
School is good now, this year is much better.
I've improved and the classmates are nice (:
Family is just the way it has always been.
I hope for some improvements in the pretty strained relationship everyone have with each other. We just gotta work at it I guess.
There's a reason why God placed me in Yang family (: haha.
Well, we cant choose our parents our family, but God's plans are bigger.

Okay, time to get some work done.
E21 gonna be amazing amazing.
A CG that is after God's heart and really love Pastors, Garrett and Wendy!

Ready get set GO!

♥ ♥ ♥ xoxo

faith through love

2008-12-08T06:13:00.003+08:00

(: It's the holidays and im enjoying every bit of it.
its 6.13am right now, im awake, its insane.
Just finished up doing some publications stuff, prayed abit read my Bible and suddenly I thought I should blog before i hit the pillow (:

The weekend that just past was busy bee but really aweeeeeesome.

I did usher on Saturday (: It was good good.
And we had a zone meeting with Garrett in the afternoon as well.
Minor restructure.
Well, more opportunities for every one to step in step up make a difference man!

Today was fantabulous.
I am a happy girl.
Service for both days was gooooood.
And I ate alot of Ben and Jerry's Icecream.
If you've miss out on this, dont miss out on the other upcoming events.
It's all too exciting to be missed!

And Selena came back today and Ahboon visited too! (:
Charmaine came back with a funky new hair style as well (;

The upcoming week is gonna be real pack for me, but im definitely gonna grow more in capacity and substance (:

Discipleship class was good (: I love my Pastors! (:

Okay, time to sleep now.

I Love (: Selena and Charmaine! (:

happy birthday dearest cousin (:

2008-12-02T03:06:00.003+08:00

on 27th it was my lovely cousin elgin's birthday (:
We celebrated with food today at newton's.

im quite lazy to blog now.
life' good cos review is over.
now more time for myself, friends and family.
today i met gwen,qi and rebecca (i hope i remb correctly) at tpy and headed to newton aft which.
in the morning i did the ecards for publications, continuing tomorrow morning.

i should be satisfied with the time i have now.
tomorrow i'll go running.

now let's let the pictures do the talking (:
some photos taken on the last day of review!

xoxox take care for now (:

mess?

2008-11-27T14:47:00.002+08:00

Tell me. Which server are you usin (IE,Firefox,Safari)
And does my blog looks messy to you?
Hmm

2008-11-27T14:25:00.003+08:00

I cant wait to clear the mess I have on this table im using now.
All the white glue, paper, ruler, markers, pencils...
Goshz.

Tomorrow is my last review, I have some work to finish today ):
I should be doing them now, but...
I am here.
AHHAHA.
I will do it soon enough.

After that it's holidays till next year.
But it aint gonna be fully holidays.

There's 3D to work on, 2D to think about.
But whatever, I think I gonna settle all this in 1 week. and Enjoy.

There's so much to do, catching up.
Exercising, meeting up with people.
Getting souls backzxz.
Being part of the whole December buzz in church (:

Boy am I excited.
Tomorrow !!

I need to run at least 3 times a week.
I have put on much weight over the review, munching and munching. Waahaaaa.

Okayz.

Any part-time job, really flexible time to intro?
Let me know kayz.
(:

Goodbye and takecare for now.
I'll be back.

No more Ipod

2008-11-26T00:44:00.002+08:00

Okay, since many of you feels that my musikzxz is very irritating.
there you go.
I have removed it (:

the God i know

2008-11-25T15:40:00.003+08:00

Asia Conference was a blast.
I did photog on Thursday and I learnt alot (:
Well, and feel myself trying out more things and growing another level.
C3 on Saturday was fantabulous.
In the midst of many things happening, I fight to keep believing.
And I have to.

3 more days and the Review is over.

I wanted to donate my blood on Saturday, but was rejected due to my Sinus ):
So sad! I waited for 2 years, and I got rejected. Rahzxz.

I should be working now, chionging...
But I feel like blogging.

So anyway, yesterday was rest day for me.
Did not feel the best, toothache whatever. grrr.
I watched ANTM Season 11.
OH MAN, WHYYYYYY Analeigh never win! Mckey is good, but I would prefer Analeigh.
Definitely Analeigh over Samantha
Sam is like... commercial face, kiddo look... chubzxz.
): I dont like how the judging ended up for this season. Tskkz
I finished reading New Moon, next up Eclipse.

December is coming...
TWILIGHT MOVIE!
CHRISTMAS!

Awesomestzxz.

Anyway, one reason why I blogged...
I wanna specially leave a long long message for my dear friend Selena (:
Touched anotzxzxzxzxzxzxz :D:D

-----------------------------------

Hey girl, I know you are going through some tough time in your family now.
Just read your blog, I will be praying for yr daddy okay? (:
You know, it's been super awesome knowing you, and the fact that we are not schooling together already is sad, but its fine y'know (:
Always to meet up and chillzxz and take many peektures yes?

You always think I am so tense and worked up when I talk to you more seriously.
Like when I share with you about my past etc, you think I am very sad.
hahaha, so cute.
But noooo. Really (: I am happy than ever becos' I know God has blessed me tremendously in this life. And having Him in my life, opening the door in my heart and allowing Him in was the best thing ever I have done in my whole 19 years.

The day you came Nick Vujicic service with me, I teared becos' I was very touched by the fact you even agreed to come. I was praying and hoping so much that you would come for the service with me before you really came...And I know in my heart, something touched you.. in a way or more.
And I pray one day, you'll be beside me, side ways worshipping God and loving him week after week even till we are "cheapo" aunties (:

I love you very much girl, and I wish you the best for your future.
Regarding your school etc, I really hope you could make a final decision for yourself soon.
Being indecisive makes things harder.
My pastor once let us watched a movie "Lions for Lambs" and in the movie there was a part of it that goes-

"The decisions you make now can’t be changed but with years and years of hard work to redo it. In those years you become something different, everybody does as time passes, you get married, you get into debt but you never get to be the same person you are right now. The promise and the potential, is very fickle and it just might not be there anymore.

What I’m saying is you’re an adult now. The tough thing about adulthood is it starts even before you know it starts when you are already a dozen decisions into it. But what you need to know is no lifeguard is watching you anymore, you’re on your own. You’re your own man and the decisions you now make are yours and yours alone from here until the end."

We are adults already. 19 years old, almost stepping into the adulthood. We are a foot in it already. We have made tons of decisions, the things we do, the school we choose, the friends we make... it's gonna make differences in this life we are in.
We would be on our own eventually, and there's no time to always party and play.
I pray and hope you would soon find out and know the desire of your heart.
What are your ideas in life?
What do you want to do?

Idealism- to keep going becos' of it, even through out setbacks, to just keep going forth.
Not allowing circumstances and issues or setbacks stop us.

Anchoring in your dreams babe. (:
I really hope you would have a clearer idea what you really want in life.
Instead of letting others have a say in yr life, why not you have a say yourself.

Let now little fears keep you from moving on kay?

I love you girl, and you know (:
You're petite in size, but you gonna be strong mighty Selena (:

Hugszxz*

Keep Sane

2008-11-19T10:46:00.005+08:00

There's so much crap going on in this household.
Too much nonsense to handle.
I am opting to blast my music and cover up all noise and sounds and conversations going on.
The headphone would do perfectly great during times like this.
Only way to keep me sane with all the blabbers and shoutings.

I finally had some rest after only sleeping 1 hour yesterday to do my work for my 2D.
But anyhow, its all good.
The review was fine, my grade is more than what i deserved I would say (:
So im happy and ate waffles to celebrate despite feeling so tired.
Haha.

Last weekend we had StrikeIt event in church. It was all exciting (:
The winner walked away with Adidas vouchers. (:
I was having a meeting when they had the finals.
But if im not wrong, I head C1 won, Jem Ong and his teamm!

I played WII Boxing and went crazy, suffered the ache the day after.
Now, feeling much better.
Here's some photos taken during the event.
More are up in my FB.

Nownow,
More reviews coming up.
Today's the start of Asia Conference, I m gonna be there.
So now, time to start working for my 3D in awhile's time.
I declared I AM GONNA DO MY WORK BY 11AM.
So I shall.

Right, off to get some work done.
Goodbye(:

& Drink loads of water.
The monsoon season of the year is here.
Every one seems to be falling sick too..

It's Normal.

2008-11-13T03:03:00.009+08:00

I got cheated today when I went to Popular to get paper for my test printings.
And got ripped off $25 when I went printing.
Oh well whatever.
):

Spend the evening with Elizabeth, Michelle and her cousin Hamtie.
We walked around and helped Eli choose her promshoes.
I got my project file etc and koonyew came along.
We ate icecream and took photos.
I took the break I needed. Now its time , back to work
Tata.

I guess it's normal we feel tired sometimes.
But this means we need to tap on the Power Source.

Every thing seems very messy all over.
School and evrything.
I need to get things right.

Tiredness doesnt mean everything should go downhill.

I admit I am very tired and not alert.
BUT- this shouldnt be the way things should be...
and from here I'll pick myself up and,
Move on.
Walk on.

I need to not wonder about certain things and just move on and do what I need to do.

you are wonderful the way you are but far from my understanding.

Now is the time I fly.
Expand.
Force energy.

So goodbye - for now.
And welcome, heartwork, hardwork, harvest.

Goodnight.
A new day with You awaits.

Good Day.

2008-11-11T04:40:00.002+08:00

Good Day.
I slept in late today.
Went for HQ and got refreshed.
Whatever comes my way, Jesus leads the way (:

Tomorrow I shall be up early to start my 2D.

Ohhhh, stayed in church till quite late.
Many of them were playing karaokeparty.com
go check it out.
it's really quite fun. heehee.

goodnight goodbye.
i am off to get some reading done and fall asleep.

keepsafe love.

sweetness, beautiful crystals

2008-11-10T02:08:00.002+08:00

( apologies for this photo-less entry and that it's so lengthy.
i need to sort out thoughts you know. haha )

it's amazing how this week passed so quicky.
the powerpacked week.
from nick vujicic services to the weekend with pst kong!

something random,
my room is super warm right now and my sis just made a comment
: "times like these you really really really (x3) REALLY wants to go London."
haha, the aircondition is alrdy on but i have no idea why.
my aircon is a bit weird. it isnt very cooling you know.

back to the post...
i am really really quite tired now.
physically. spiritually i am charged and ready to go.
just a couple of thoughts in my mind about people and things.
i love how things are now.
where i am now.
how i am going now.
alot more grounds to conquer and go.
and this season, it's growth and although i may struggle.
i need to pull through just this part and things would work out.
"pull through it" wendy told me. haha.
prayers are very very much needed.

let me clear some of my thoughts.

the other day, one of my classmates was talking about how he is uncertain about what he wants to do in life, how he feels his passion is one thing, what others think it another and what the society wants is another. he was so confused. he's actually younger than most of us.
(well, in Lasalle there are like 17-26 years old people in a class kinda thing you know)
so we were advising him and talking to him etc.
some of them told him, now is the time for him to party etc.
and he is still young, need not worry much.
well, in my mind i had loads of thoughts, i voiced out abit about making his own choice, and he need to know it is what he wants, decisions we make, make sure we know it is out of own choice and not cos' of others. you need to know what are the directions you want to go cos' as you grow older you dont really have lifeguards in yr life to watch over you.
but well, each to their own lifestyle.own ideas own perception and principles of life.
however, for me i know i have God.
I mean, i always have the HS with me, guiding me.
But when I see how aimless and purposeless sometimes they can get, i feel alot for them.

I thank God for Pastors.
I thank God that Pastors are so concern about my life.
They are like my parents, i love them (:
Pastors are not just figures i am not close to, but people who give inputs into my life.
I thank God for that discipleship class I had with Pastor How months ago.
On Idealism, it was really amazing.
Anchoring yourself.

The harvest was plentiful during Nick Vujicic.
Now that all the week has passed, hard work is coming.
I have Review coming up.... (which reminds me i have SO MUCH to do)
Asia Conference is coming, and boy am i excited.
Hard work is coming up and its more Heart work than Hard work!
Need to plan time wisely.

Somtimes I wish I could read the mind of people.
Then I can tell them straight into their face not to be so complicated sometimes.
But then again, its not exactly good if you can read everyone's mind.
it gets quite scary eh?
be simple, stop gossiping, love people and love His ways. Convictions.
I wish people would just get it.

There's nothing much I can do other than pray hard that one day they would just get it and stop all nonsense.

Great things are happening, no time for nonsense.
it's harvest time.
i am gonna really just pull through during this period of time.
i need to do well in school.
and e2 needs to grow.
the burden is in my heart and i wish i could bare my heart and just show you how i feel about things.

whatever it is, i believe i'll make it with Him.
Prayers will work wonders when I really dont have time.
things would definitely work out.
i love life the way it is now.
things are amazing and i am glad He brought me this far.

it's awesome to see people coming to know Him,
coming to church, coming and getting touched.
my dear friend came for Nick Vujicic and enjoyed herself.
I am very happy, but would definitely be more than elated if she had made the greatest choice.
but nevermind, i'll keep her in my prayers (:
cos' i love her and wish she experience all the goodness that i do.

oh, on friday before rushing for pst kong service, lunched at nydc with the classmates.
we had a minicelebration with zhuozhuo for her birthday (:
photos would be up soon once sel send them to me (:

i am very excited now to conquer things.
so many many things.
tough work, hard work, heart work, school work. whatever.
i may get very tired, but i am excited.
excited to rely on God.
excited to show others than it is possible.
excited excited.

the journey of a dream video yesterday made me feel so thankful that i am part of this miracle.
part of this great team.
and i hope evryone ard me who are not in this yet would be in this.
i love every bit of my walk with Him.
i fall, i stand, i learn, i walk on.

oh ya, i was on photog today.
i was quite stress cos' its like the finale.
i fasted and i prayed.
it turned out pretty well (:
well, i am happy with my crowd and wide shots.
at least i kinda conquer my fear of heights.
hahaha. rather of shooting from high positions.

i am thus kinda tired now, cos i run ard alot.
did alot stuff lately, like using my brain.
hahaha.
(not that i usually dont.)

i am off to read a book, New Moon, continual of Twilight.
and fall asleep while reading.
wake up tomorrow and do workplan plus school work.
self declared holiday tomorrow. HAHAHA.

love life the way it is now.
problems might be in the midst, but God is bigger.

(oh i found out lately that some of my classmates reads my blog! :D hahaha)

anyway, off i go now.
i love life.
i like you i love You i love this feeling.
goodbye
keep safe .

Happy Pill

2008-11-05T12:23:00.002+08:00

Happy pill is seeing many new friends coming to church! (:
The high feeling of euphoria is so shiooooooook and i am very much addicted to it.

Yesterday's Nick Vujicic service was awesome fantastic fantabulous.
I was greatly inspired by him, and greatly touched by God's love.
Seeing all the brave souls out there last night making a step was so sweet.

This is what it's all about.
His love so sccccch-weeeeeeet.

Review is in 2 weeks... I still have much stuff to do, but can lah.
I think?
OHHHHHH. Holidays after Review.
SO looking forward.
I am very very excited.

Friday sooooooooo exciting. Me looks forward.
School(talk to chng kang abt review :D) , Zhuozhuo birthday lunch :D, Pst Kong!
Very happy girl.
Life is very awesome.

I love my life, do you?
You can have the same euphoriaaaaaaaaaa too know?

TODAY is the LAST SESSION of Nick Vujicic Service!
(: Come if you wanna hear his life story about No Limbs No Limits.
Just contacttttttttt me manz.

Keep safe!

):

2008-11-01T11:43:00.002+08:00

my phone died last night.
I was about to confirm today's attendance again with the CG.
and there it was, with a blue screen.
no matter how i pressed, it didnt on.
so i took out the battery and put back.
the blue screen was gone, now there's nothing.
and i cant on again!!!
i threw it on the floor (cos' last time no sound, no vibration, i throw then can already)
woah, miracle. it turn on.
BUT, hung at the welcome screen.
grr. no choice but to take out battery put back again, and it did not on again.
later, i threw again, it was on again!
but hung when i go to menu.
0.0
now it cant be on anymore.
): i am getting a spare phone.
but can anyone tell me, how can i retrieve all my phone numebers etc?
my numbers are all in the phone's phone book...
i did backup in the memory stick before, but like useless leh?
HELPPPP.
i am using k800i.

had a bad sleep.
bad bad toothache.
it was killing me the whole time ):
until i took panadols.
now i am still having the pain :\
more panadols i guess.
gonna survive on it till i go to the dentist.
bad timing, no time.

frowns.

oh well, there's still combined service later.
and its gonna be good.

keep safe .

with you, im walking on sunshine (:

2008-10-31T23:26:00.003+08:00

ladeedum.
Pastors and Rinnah are back, the team is back, my sis is back!
(Yay, thank you sis for getting so much tidbits and also getting me the pretty dress that looked like 2 piece (: i like highwaisted. heeheehee. and so into grey lately. so its awesome :D)
(( oh and pre-thanks to fe who bought me a NG tee as mentioned :D ))
so loved :D

I
headed to the airport after having my reading done in the morning.
Spent some time with the parents listening to them sing...
(thats like such a daily event)

Today's weather was really humid.
zzz. I hate to perspire really ):
Spent some time with Adri and Chloe after fetching them and later headed home.
I finished reading Twilight already!
Next next, New Moon (:

I am perspiring like mad as I blog becos' my dad apparently closed all the windows on me and off the main ceiling fan 0.0
this is so frustrating.
( ah, i just went to switch the energy-less fan on again )
I've done a few more of the drawings for my 2D earlier, hopefully I'll wake up early tomorrow and do more.
My dad just finished watching Crime Watch 3 times. 0.0
I have NO idea why he did so.

I am in high spirits although I am feeling super warmmmmmmm!!
I am so excited for Combined Service tomorrow and I wonder if you are.
It frustrates me when I see people who have been in church for already quite some time, simply not catching the same heart,that DNA, that love to be around the house of God and the things of God and the people of God.
I wish they get the point.

Anyhow anyhow (:
Next week gonna be fantabulous.
Tiring physicially but spiritually refreshed.
I am super excitied, I hope you are as well.

:D Selena and Zhuozhuo are coming for Nick Vujicic with me on Tuesday.
I AM VERY HAPPY!!!

(: keep safe!

snuggly in bed

2008-10-30T18:42:00.002+08:00

i have been spending most of my time in bed today.
thats not a very good sign.
i woke up today having a terrible headache, struggling to get up, but...
haha i ended up sleeping till noon.
hate how this is becos' i feel like i have wasted alot of time.
but then again, it was good cos' i woke up feeling much better (:

i have been watching ANTM Cycle 11 and its awesome (:
thought this cycle's participants looks more gorgeous but they are all slightly more female doggy'ish in personality. loads of misunderstandings and quarrels going on etc.
my personal favourites are Elina and Analeigh(spell?)
They have unique looks, not just another pretty face (:

Yesterday headed down to church to get some work done with Koon and Elyn.
But Elyn left earlier, like really early. (rah)
Koon and I worked till about 10.30pm?
But we were pretty much distracted at the later part.
but nevertheless I did some work, got my unity done...
and loads more to go.
BUT I HAVE NOT TOUCHED ANY WORK SINCE MORNING!

cos' i've been in bed watch ANTM and also reading Twilight.
Hey Shini, thanks for lending the book to me (:
I've been asking around and not getting much responds.. and finally!
Twilight's movie is gonna be out in December.
Woot woot woot (:

Right, I am gonna get my essay and another essay done tonight.
Also hopefully I'll stay up to finish drawing for my 2D and paint tomorrow or something.
But now, back to a little bit more of Twilight... then I'll shower, go get some snacks and start working for the night.

by the way gonghua, i've been indulging in loads of frozen yakult :D
my mom thinks im mad.
I wanna go get grape flavour...
Momsy always buy me like apple and original flavours only.

Pastors and the team who went London would be back tomorrow :D
Happy me happy shalala.
I cant wait for the weekend.
But yet, part of me wants to independent week still so badly.
It passed so quickly!!

till then,
love xin

back to first love

2008-10-28T20:37:00.001+08:00

headed to tp today.
met up with amy and chat for a little and i was alone.
bored like nothing cos' i did not bring my laptop either.

finally after some time of searching for people who are having break,
i found fion :D
she brought me to the comp lab and entertained me.
liwen came along.

hwee finally came and we ate lunch.
fion went to class and while liwen, hwee and me sat at the mensa waiting for guowei & benny.
after they came, we waited for them to have lunch and we went to have brownie.
hung ard took nonsense pic and headed home.

tata thats my day.

here pictures (:

guowei and benny came together.
they stayed over and brian's hse the day before.
both came with red shorts.
i had a good laugh.
hahaha

okay thats all (:
keep safe love

all will see, how this love set me free

2008-10-28T02:02:00.002+08:00

Ah, I feel quite productive today.
Well at least I managed to get some serious business done.
Like planning my week, doing the new friend list etc...

(: Tomorrow imma gonna head down to TP to find Amy Jasmine etc (:
It's all good, and I am gonna have waffles :D Gelare baybeh.

My arms are aching from yesterday's volleyball in church.
Oh manzx.
I will master V.ball (!!!- with alot of determination)

Ohh, I managed to chat abit with Fedora earlier cos' she was up early in London
So lovely of her, dear SGteamers, she got us a tee each ! (:
Happy girl.
Anyway, also managed to speak to my sis as she skyped me and chat with pam and roy abit as well over msn/skype.
Ahhh, I miss Pastors and all of them.
Friday and they are gonna be back, super jetlag man!
Heard from Roy that they experience time change over there.
I read from a friend's blog that its due to daylight saving.
So now they have extra 1 hour over in London..
So cool. hahaha.

Yoko came over today! (: So did Winnie, May and Maybelline.
They were just slacking around my house...
Yoko is so funny (:
I love her.
Heehee.
Here's some photos.
And that house is quite small actually... Yoko is tiny enough to sit inside :D

Hahahha.
Alright I am off to bed.
Tireddddddd.

Goodnight loves.
xoxo keep safe.

i see my life in a different light

2008-10-27T03:56:00.004+08:00

Breathe.
Maybe I did not go to London becos' God knows that this weekend's sermon will
Speak right to my heart, Make me reflect, Stir my spirit .
I am quite certain He planned all these in fact (:

Today, I sang with joy, I smiled widely while clapping and jumping :D
Today, I took a little more time to listen to Him (:
Today, I gave thanks and glory to the One who is so gracious.

I need to start having deliberate practice to be more detailed and consistent in doing things.
Focusing.
Now is the time for me to share the burden, fly and grow.
Anything else can wait, cos' I know God promises, and He is so faithful.
And that comforts my soul (:

Ohhhhhh. I am proud to say I was there when Charleston first preached in service!
Proud to say what I was there when Garrett first preached in service as well!
:D:D:D
Exciting (:
Garrett's sermon today was powerful to powerful to very power.

I felt very thankful, very loved, very blessed.
God has taken very good care of me by putting me in Heart of God church.
It's the best thing that could ever happen to me in this life.

I am part of the first 1000!
I am there when Charleston & Garrett preached in main service!
I was there when New Generation was launched in SG!
I was part of the first 500 youths! ( i think 400 too...)

I was dreaming alot during service today...
I dreamt about what I would be doing in 2010.
Our church would be 3000.
I dreamt about what I would be doing in 2015.
We would have grown so much to 10, 000.

There's so much I see myself doing.
But yet, I know that to get there, I need to get things right in my life now.
My character, habits, heart, spirituality and desires.
& I know it is possible when God guides me through.

I know and I pray that my loved ones would still be side by side running this race with me.
Doing and living life together.
The same ol' people.
The same ol' bond.
(: That would be sch-weeeeet.

Tomorrow's ( i mean later ) is public holiday for many.
Deeeeeeepavaliiiiiizxzxz.

I have a week of independent week.
Its time to chiong abit.
This week,
I shall spend more time with God,
hang out with Amy&Jasmine, super long never see them
and Amandal as I did not see her this week
and chiong my 10012345 projects (drawings/paintings/reflections/researchs)

Oh, I need to introduce my new dairy friends to you all :D

Meet Vitagen(Sinfei) and Meiji (Gonghua) :D:D:D

Hehehehe.

I had prata earlier with Elaine and cousins, Minghan, May and Yoko.
Yvonne and I played with Yokoooooo :D
She's coming my house tomorrow to learn abit of piano. heehee.

That part of Hougang is horrible.
There were so many many rats running around okay!!
0.0 I can still visualise them and 'see' them when I think back. ERPPPPPP

It's getting late, time for bed.

Tomorrow's gonna be good. Family time. hahaaaaaa

Time to soar.
(:
I will go spend some time with my first love.

Today, I am walking to the beat of your heart

Keep safe love

good to great

2008-10-26T00:48:00.002+08:00

Today was fantabulous.
I reflected abit.
And during service God spoke to me and I felt so comforted.

Sometimes its about getting it right with God first before moving and growing even more.
Sometimes when things doesnt seem right and you dont know what to do the best is that you turn to Him and He is just there, so near .. so near..

Last night was quite bad.
But now I am alright.
God is a great comforter.

Everytime when you feel that things are not right
will not work out.
desperate and out.

i need to be reminded that He is there. always there.

now is the time to grow.
there is so much things to focus on.
i need to keep my vision clear.
focus right.

run and fly.

no more running wild.

Cold cold night

2008-10-25T02:59:00.002+08:00

Cold cold night.
Blow wind blow, tonight I am feeling different.
I need to rant certain thoughts, but I dont know how to go about it.

It's so cold here in Singapore, I wonder if its worse over there in London?

Yeah, i want to go London this badly.

School is irritating me badly.
Projects loading up.
Breathing up my neck.

I need to focus.

The real truth aint pretty sometimes.

Ignore this entry, i had to rant.

Nick Vujiciccccccc

2008-10-17T17:01:00.001+08:00

(: This guy is amazing.
Check THIS out.

I am so inspired by him, hear more from him on 4th and 5th November.
Contact me / Tag me for more details!
Join me if you are free! (:

xoxo, keep safe love.

Speechless Answers

2008-10-17T02:07:00.003+08:00

Have you ever been asked questions that left you thinking?
Or questions you have no idea how to reply?
Or answers given that you are not certain of?
Or times in life you were given so much attention and times in life you are given little?

There's a time to everything huh? (:

Breathe.

drained, breathe, live

2008-10-17T01:23:00.004+08:00

This is one of the entries I ramble and go on and on.
There's no direction to this entry.

I am feeling so drained out.
And certainly taken aback when I sat myself down, think and wrote down all the school works that are not completed.

There's much to do, and yet not alot of time.
Sometimes I now its just about, dont bother just chiong, just do.
But right now, I really feel so drained and tired.
Yawn.

I would probably sleep earlier tonight.
There's drawing tomorrow and I might turn up 30mins later again.
Chng Kang is the best lecturer (:
HAHAHA.

The piling up of school projects never stops.
Nxt next week is inde week again.
But this time now, no slack, time to pull up socks and rush all my work.
Last chance to rush as much as i can, finish up artpieces that are incompleted.

Thank God that,
Besides school.
I have a life in church.

I am dying to have my holiday without having to think of work.

& something suddenly caught my thoughts again today.
Not vehli good.
So it shall be chucked aside soon.

So today, I thought of you.

I am quite grumpy now.
Hahahaaaaaaaa.

Give love when one doesnt deserve it, cos' probably thats when they need it the most.

Whatever it is,

Keep safe; chaozxz

(p.s/ and suddenly i miss the ol' sec sch sjc days hugs. )

thanksgiving

2008-10-16T12:27:00.003+08:00

God thank you for everything in my life.
I pray my parents get saved one day.

Thank you to all of you who messaged me from all over Singapore and Bryan from Aust,
on my birthday, after my birthday and all (:
Thank you for all the facebook greetings (:

Thank you E2 for the Volcom pretty belt, it fits me nicely.
& The cake which i dunno what cake but ate it from Coffeebeanzxz
Let's really grow together and be a support in church hokay! (:

Thank you Elyn, Guowei and Hwee for the little surprise at Pizzahut (:
I was really shocked by the birthday song, but the rest.... hahaha.
I enjoyed myself (: Really. Thanks so much for the lipgloss (:
I am using it alrdy. Heeheezxz.
& Guowei for yr effort in drawing me sucha pretty card.
Tho failed attempted to bluff me that you did not do any card for me :p

Thank you Eeloo, Chewtheng, Ruoen and Adri for the effort to celebrate my birthday.
Emax was crazy i betch you guys enjoyed yrself alot too.
Thank you for the colorful pretty macarons.
They are so yummy, i ate them up in one night. HAHAHA.
(I think i put on alotta weight aft my birthday.)

Thank you Elgin !
Cousin you the best love you duoduo.
Thanks for the treat and trying yr best to make yr cousin a happy girl on her birthday (:

Thank you Joyce, Dale, Kianleng, Honghwee, And SweeWeijie
Who happened to be around and celebrated my birthday with me.
And all the funniest jokesz.

Thank you Derrick and Jeremy and Huiqi for the Sushi Buffet treat (:
& the nonsense time spent at Starbucks chilling out.
I needed that 'relax' session (:

Thank you Vanessa for the shorts you gave me! (I have yet to try.. hahah)
and the card (:

Thank you Elyn for the wooden bracelet (sorry for the accident ): )
and thank you for the dress ( which is washed but not worn yet! )

Thank you Amandal for the necklace (:
It's pretty.
But the horn dropped out!

Thank you Peishan for yr Koi.
It was REALLY sweet of you to go all the way down to TPY on a weekend to buy me (:
Love you maaaaaanzxz
And and for the pretttttty bracelet! (:

Thank you Sel and Alvin for yr treat at Icemonster
And trying to cheer me up cos' school was so crappy.

Thank you Jasmine Tan MH, for delivering the birthday card to my house!
I was really surprised. Thank you so much girl

Thank you mommy for sponsoring me to highlight my hair plus yr little angbao.
(Though i know my mom wont read here...)

Thank you Jesus for making me 19 years ago.
(: Simply amazing and lovely.
heehees.

And to every one of you who made my 19th birthday a lovely one.
Sorry if I did not mention your name.
But thank you, really.
I am filled with thanksgiving that God blessed me with you all.

Life's good.
And in hoGc, we do life together side by side.
growing and loving (:

12345busy54321

2008-10-13T04:15:00.003+08:00

hi i promise to update about my life, my birthday celebrations, school, church evrything and whatever soon.
busy lately and very tired.
al my posts are typed half way..
i dont know if you are even interested to read about all the things mentioned above but i dont really care im just gonna blog about them soon, like one long long entry.
read or not its up to you ! (:

and im excited about november i'll tell you why soon.

now,
its time for bed and im outta here.

(edit: birthday celebrations post below )

hi, i am nineteen now.

2008-10-08T23:11:00.017+08:00

( hi today its now, 16 oct 2.06am-continued on thu 12.08pm..
i attempted to type this entry on 8 october. ahaha)
helloworld,meisnownineteen.
it is my last year of teen hood wendy said.
HAHAH.
next year it would be... twenTY. with a 2 ):
And this Kianleng said "Twenty no more teen, its aunTY"
Best already.

kekekexzxz (:
thank you thank you to everyone of you who wished me via sms, and on facebook!
sorry if i didnt reply you, its either i was busy,
or i just woke up read yr msg and went back to sleep. hahahahahahha.
and bryan yee was the first to wish me, cos very early
like maybe cos' he is in aust thats why?
he tried to act secretive and all. tsk tskzxz.
and record holder for sending the most sms-
wuruoen, she think very cool sent me 19 messages.

celebrated firstly with- elyn, guowei and hweeyee.
(: they are the funniest luh.
here's what happened if you are interested, read on-

i was in school, elyn had lesson at dhoby so i had to meet her at sunshine plaza.
we were all suppose to meet at 2.45pm at cityhall but at 2.30 plus,
this guowei tried to act smart and messaged me saying that hweey and him cant come anymore.
why? cos' got integration study outing.
(abit eh? like so last min..)
so obviously i didnt believe, but i played along act sad and not very pleased.
i called stella to double confirm if there is any outing and all.
so tata i was right there isnt.
i acted unhappy and all not picking up calls sounding very angry etc and showing elyn angry face
i tried to act like i wanted to change venue as well.
im so evil i know :P

oh well oh well, it was all fun anyway and we had a fantabulous lunch at pizzzzza hut.
i was then given this present that seemed like books, wrapped in a very weird wrapper.

met up with adri & walked ard fep for awhile, headed to borders to meet the rest.

chew, ru, ruoen, michelle came along. elgin joined us after that
we headed to MNG, becos' they were secretly trying to buy me macarons cos i said i wanted to eat them (hahaha i knew it leh) then headed to dingtaifung for xiaolongbaoz

picturessss/ 2nd album

so anyway, we felt that the night was still young and headed to emax to play boxing.

my muscles ached like mad after which..

loads photos uploaded and video which i did not upload (ask me if interested. hahaha

On the birthday itself, school was bad. I was upset and didnt start they day off nicely.

sel and alvin treated me the shaved mango/strawberry sherbet ice (:

Aft which,met up with my cousin (:

Elgin, he shopped alot. i walked with him and got really tired.
honghwee, kianleng and sweet were with us, joyce and dale came to join too.
i was really sianzxz by then and thus we headed to hongkong cafe @ cineleisure and eat.
(: elgin treated me and they surprised me with this thick toast as my cake.

i ate porkchop ramen.. poluobun..(crystal jade one and the real hongkong cafe one still dabombz)

for more photos : this is it

on friday, sushi buffet with derrick & jeremy,

and qi came after which.
loads pics yet to be uploaded. soon soon!

we chilled out at starbucks after which . and talked alotta stupid nonsense.

so yeah, thats how i celebrated my 19 and i am opting to type another entry to talk more about other thanksgiving to God and to people who blessed me on my birthday.
cos' this entry looks really messy now.

goodbye

12345

2008-10-03T02:15:00.002+08:00

A cuppa ice horlicks, colourful heartshaped prints quilt and God's word will make me a happier girl tonight. Goodnight folks.
(edit: dont even have horlicks powder anymore ): )-2.45am
I've school tomorrow.
1 week since I last seen the classmates.

hand in hand, walking down the lane

2008-10-03T02:06:00.002+08:00

I am finally done with my wire hand.
Aint a very pleasant evening.
Goodbye.

& only You,
are always Faithful and True.
nothing in this world can compare.
truly, You alone.

i would have rather this be like every other year
simple affair, silent nothing
why expectancy and false hope?

When you get stressed...

2008-10-02T00:34:00.002+08:00

I am dying doing my wire hand.
Twirling wires. blablabla.
So here you go some nonsense.

Answer quickly w/o thinking much:

Name 5 things you want to eat right now:
1. Jagabee!
2. Orange Juice (drink considered?)
3. Oatmeal Cookie Chunk Icecream
4. Tori Q Meatballs
5. Kinder Bueno

Name 5 things you wish to get rid off right now:
1. My wire hands
2. The mess on my table
3. Tiredness
4. Fats :P
5. Pimple

Name 5 Fashion Items you wish to get right now:
1. A new big bag that I can use for school
2. Denim high waisted shorts
3. Flora Fabric Skirt
4. Nice Trucker Cap
5. Lightning Blot Printed Hoodie

Name 5 Gadgets you would want to get:
1. Mac Book Pro
2. My own Ipod Touch
3. A new phone. Sony Ericsson plzzzzzzz
4. Holga camera to play
5. DSLR Camera

Name 5 favourite names you like:
1. Ashley
2. Dylan
3. Della
4. Kayla
5. Aloy

Name 5 local food you like:
1. Satay
2. Grilled Chicken Wings
3. Char Kway Teow
4. Laksa thats not too spicyyyyy
5. Chicken rice

Name 5 Make up you would use/get:
1. Eyeliner
2. Maybelline Unstoppable Ultra Black Mascara
3. Get- Nude coloured lipglossss
4. Get- Mac Blusherrrrrrr
5. Get- Some nice eyeshadow? i dont really use. anyhow la.

Name 5 things you want to do right now:
1. Sleep
2. Go shower
3. Have magic hands and finish up all my homework
4. Grow the CG
5. EV

ok goodbye
): i hate wires

Know-More-About-Xinjie.com

2008-10-01T14:45:00.002+08:00

Eh. Very long never do such nonsense.
Comez let me do a few before I go find some food to eat and do my wire hand.
I WILL DO !
Latest by tml must be donez manzxz.

1.Story behind your blog song?

Eh too many songs. Indiez I like :D

2. What's bothering you right now?

When is mommy coming home coz' imma very hungry

3. Do you close the door when you pee?

Uh huh, what a question

4. Describe your wallet.

PVC, Orangey,pinkish,yellowish patches like sewn together. Damn fat. Wanna change soon.

5. Wallpaper on your computer?
Random Collage of photos in polaraid form and loads of my Post-its to dos.

6. Background on your cell phone?

Rinnah and Yoko :D

7. Jewelry worn daily?

Black Beaded bracelet Pastor Lia gave (actually my ring too but lost!) and my pink watch that momsy gave it to me 2 years ago on my birthday(:

8. Where was your default picture taken?

Revenue house Nihon Mura, Jeremy's Birthday celebration

9. Eyes?

Brown

10.what will you be doing this weekend?

Friday would be followup with Amandal and Wendy, and then 1st celebration for my birthday :D
Saturday service and Fashion and Sunday followup and chilling :D

11 what are you wearing?

SJC PE Tee and QOO Pyjamas Party redeemed shorts. Lol

12. Where are you?

Me room

13. listening to?

Girl in My Mirror

14. Have you ever kissed anyone?

My Dad and Mom (:

16. Eating?

Nothing, HUNGRY

17. What is/are your favorite thing/s?

-It's my precious Bible that Garrett&Wendy and some of the others gave me.
-Ipod Touch that Jackson lent me (not mine lah, but it entertains me so much I like it)
-Pretty headphones
-My high immune system Handphone
-This laptop which is like very nonsense but working well
-My quilt blanket sis bought!
-Bracelet which PastorLia gave me
-My CAMERA dad gave me
Eh... alot leh.

18. Do you remember your dreams?

Kinda. Sometimes, it depends

19. Do you believe dreams do come true?

Dreams that I DREAM yes. Why not?

20. Do you believe in miracles?

Probably. My God is a God of Miracles :D

21. Do you burn easily in the sun?

Not really...unless I stay in for a long period of time

22. What's something you wish you could understand better?

My parents

23. What did you do last weekend?

Friday I went Gym and went Tampines Mall. Saturday I was in service and Sun On usher and night time F1 Screeningz

26. Orange or apple juice?

ORANGE ORANGE ORANGE. Not sourz one.

27. Do you like the person who took this survey before you?

I randomly took it leh

28. What was the last text message you received?

From Derrick about some venues

29. What was the last text message you sent?

Also can I anything

31. What is the closest thing to you that is blue?

My drawing pencils tin cover

32. What was the last thing you ate?

Last night, Blueberry Morning Cereal and Milo

34. Whose house did you go to last night?

No one, my own. The last house I visited was Elyn's

35. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?

I need to recall...Ehhhhhhhh. I srly cant remb.

36. Do you like someone right now? Except for your family.

Yes. Hahahaaaaaaaa. Jesussssss :D

37. What do you wear more shorts or jeans?

More to shorts nowadays. Cos' of school

38. What is the last movie you watched in a theater?

Wall E

39. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing ryt now?

My Secondary School

40. Who's that behind you?

Madness, no one.

41. are you happy?

Yes. Happy girl .com/Xinjieyang

42. who's on your mind?

Currently my mom, cos she is coming home soon :D

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Foodzxz

1. Chocolate or Strawberry Icecream? (Strawberry Baybeeeee)
2. Mint Mentoes or Grape Mentoes? (Most of the time the Mint)
3. Strawberry shortcake or Tiramisu? (Strawberry shortcake for SURE)
4. Milk/Strawberry/Chocolate Hello Panda? (Strawberry!)
5. Pocky Choc or Strawberry? (Strawberry!)
6. Blackcurrent or Strawberry Fruitplus? (Strawberry!)
7. Satay or Charkwayteow? (Satay!)
8. Frozen Yogurt or Icecream? (this is hard, I like both.)
9. Japenese Cuisine or Western? (Japanese thank you)
10. Durian Strudel or Strawberry Strudel? (BOTH ALSO I LIKE LEH. I eat strawberry more tho)
11. Kiwi fruit or Mango Fruit? (I think I would like both, but probably Kiwi :D)
12. Milo or Horlicks? (Horlicks. Make it Iced thank you :D)
13. Cococrunch or Honey star? (Honey stars :D)
14. Biscuits or Chips? (it really depends)
15. Charsiew Pau or Lotus Seed Filling Pau? (Charsiew!)
16. Durian or Mangosteen? (Durian!)
17. Coffeebean or Starbucks? (STARBUCKS!!!)
18. Caramel or Hotfudge topping on your icecream sundae? (CARAMEL :D)
19. M&Ms or Banana topping? (BANANA (:)
20. Macdonald's or KFC? (Eh can I have MosBurger? or Popeyes?)

OUTTTTTTT. Momsy is back :D

Anticipating

2008-10-01T14:33:00.004+08:00

The other day when I was at FEP with Hweeyee, Elyn and Stella they were playing some of Britney's old album.
Then we started singing her old songs.
So ol'skool :D
Cos' i used to like Britney!
Like her first few albums only.
So I recalled that there was a few songs I really liked!
Forgot how come sounded like, so I went to Youtube them :D
Anticipating/ Girl in My Mirror

Tataaaaaaaaaaaa

(edit: eh i just realise i got the album hahaaaaaa)

Cheeeeeeeee-leng @ Airport

2008-10-01T02:22:00.002+08:00

I have not done my wire hand!!!

I ended up cooping at home the whole afternoon reading blogs and playing facebook,
getting some admin stuff done and preparing to meet Wendy(s)

So I met up with Wendy Neo and Wendy Lee for dinner at Changi Airport T3.
It was really good.
We enjoyed the night very much (: Weeheehee.
We had a very good talk about life and future.
Haha.

Wendy N strucked Wendily and I thinking about what we want to be in future again.
You know, sometimes you know that it is important to have a clear goal,
but yet you are so uncertain about it.

And when reality strucks you, you know what you need to know what you want.
Other than that, knowing what you want and having certain expectations and getting ready for it. With whatever would come your way.

I know I want to go into the Creative Industry and probably be in church doing Part-Time for sure. Creative Industry like, erm, Advert?
But I am still not too sure really.
Well, we'll see where God leads me to.

What Pastor How told me on Saturday night kept on going through my mind over and over again.
It renews my whole mindset and gives me so much strength to push and do more.
Heart work heart work Xinjie (:

This society is such a consumer society.
Well, at least in my opinion.
People gets quite materialistic sometimes.
You me us.
Think about it, dont you realise?

" You are never as simple as you think you are "
Something that really caught me tonight.
Although all the time this is a fact I know, and I am always working on being a simpler person.
But really, sometimes we are not as simple as we think we are.
In our thoughts, desires and material-wants.
A penny for thought (:

I am suppose to go tanning tomorrow right!?
But its raining now and forecast said it would still be tomorrow.
I think I would probably stay home and finish up work and enjoy on Friday.

(:

Photos time and I am out.

I thank God that
- I have direct inputs from my Pastors in my life
- Wendy is my leader and she is a female and we can do stupid things together
(like taking loads of pics)
- I always have Yakult to drink :D

Flu pills & quilt blankets

2008-09-30T13:45:00.002+08:00

I
- have been to the gym on Friday with Hweeyee
- fell sick on Saturday with Flu and itchy throat
- got weaker on Sunday with super runny nose
- ushered on Sunday
- did a bit of my wire hand on Sunday in hope to complete it but no
- skipped school on Monday
- went to the clinic on Monday
- slept in late on Monday
- took flu pills
- watched shows and completed them
- went Compasspoint with Elyn
- had good talk with Elyn
- think Elyn has strong immune system not to catch my germs
- missed school with no guilt on Monday as I have MC
- missed school today with slight guilt cos' I have no MC to cover me anymore
- think school is waste of time today with just 2 lessons
- feel that then again, Mary's class could be impt and Jane might brief on review
- must check with classmates for updates
- will complete my wire hand by today, i think?
- slept in late today too
- am going to take my medication soon
- miss my classmates... have not seen them since like Thursday after lunch at Macs
( and chong Ivan and Questal since last Friday )
- feel greasy. yucks
- am going tanning tomorrow with my weak and flabby body :\
- tanning with Van, Caryn and Zelia :D
- currently have no plans for Thursday yet, school work?
- might celebrate birthday early on Friday
- want to eat strawberry shortcake
- feel like my throat damn dry
- want to eat Jagabee despite of my horrible throat
- am going to eat some durian thingy my mom asked if i wanna
( and she can still say "but you heaty leh, you wanna eat?" duhz, i would surely eat it. )
- want a doggie ( say chow chow, terrier, shitzhu? ) but i know mom will NEVER allow
- WANT TO WATCH MAMAMIA
- am already eating the durian (pancake/crepe) now :D real durians woo lala.
- think later i cannot talk already, no voice.
- dont know what to say anymore

i thank God today that
- i am in the most amazing church
- i am experiencing His presence so oftenly
- my cousin and fx is released from army to civil life for a few days now

you and i, who else?

2008-09-24T23:26:00.003+08:00

Loads of thoughts this noon.
About people and relationships.

I watched Singapore Dream to weehours today, and slept in.
Stayed home the whole day and prep for my announcements.
Did some pointers for my essay and I'll complete them tomorrow night.
I mean I have to, its due on Friday.

1001 projects to be completed and I dont seem to feel anxious, YET.
I am very lazy and this is bad.

Xinjie is the best, i just bought a new thumbdrive and now i lost it
I am flipping through all my stuff to find it now.
zzzzz

Okay coolios just found it with my perfume and fake eyelashes and whatever.
Talking about my fake eyelashes, I got them and didnt put them at all. HAHA
Too troublesome luh.

I feel like eating again and I think I'll go cook meegoreng.
I would probably turn in early today.
Long long day tomorrow.

Goodnight

and i thank God today that

I have a very nice quilt heart designed covered blanket that i love so much
I have a dimple
I have been fighting and struggling and its better than giving up

I am thinking of friends.
Goodnight.

This is me, with low possibility to look like this one day.
Lawyer?

breathe and live a day

2008-09-23T23:51:00.002+08:00

hello world, i slept in late today cos' i had horrible terrible migraine and ended up not going school for the make up 2D and IS.
I hope i didnt miss out too much for school.

Headed out in the evening to eat waffles with Eli & Mich and later hung around with Eli to kill time before heading to the airport at 9+pm to send Lorraine off to Korea.

Last night I had a time of self-reflection.
I really would like to hear honest opinions (:
Cos' I've heard from a couple of people about how i am this way and how it is a good yet bad issue.

Seriously, am I too noisy?
Haha, or the way I speak, is it too loud or whatever?
Or do I act alot like a boy so much so that alot of guys oftenly treat me like one?

Also, I had thoughts about how people are being true to themselves and how open are different people to show their real self to people around them.
How real are you?
Well, my notion is that, to be simple is the best.
But really, its not as easy as said, i know and i know you might have experience this.
Alot of times, people need to come to term with themselves about how their true character is before they can identify it and be frank to you and me.
Sometimes, some people are so caught up with being someone else or hiding their flaws so much so that it is already part of them, the way they are, their character issue, that they dont even realise it. They need to take a long time to identify their true self.
So why do people hide themselves, put on a mask ?
Well, I thought perhaps some has gone through problems and have been hurt before, so much so that fear has been build into them that they dont have the courage to do so.
Or maybe some just fear how others might judge them because they know that their true self aint a very pretty front?
Some put up fronts to fit in...
Then again, would you then regard all these as deceiving?

Well, be true to yourself, identify your real self and be simple and the way you are to people around you (:
How real are you?

(:
Anyhow, I am gonna get some work done tonight.
Like my essay before I turn in.

and 3 things I thank God today,

I stay at a place which is pretty much quite accessible to every area of Singapore.
That I've fight on for 3 years and I am still in loveliest relationship with Him.
That I am pretty true the way I am and the way I portray Me to people around me

Goodnight now, essay here I come.
And on a random note.

I love Koi Bubble Tea and Cupwalker bubble tea.
I miss Koi Bubble Tea!

(photo taken during Pst's birthday celebration. A card that Zelia made on behalf of E2. haha.)
((p.s// I know I look so weird. My eyes looks one big one small... ))

everyyear also same.com

2008-09-23T00:26:00.004+08:00

i dont really look forward to my birthday lehzxz.
elyn kept reminding me its nearing.
everyyearalsoalmostthesame.
i dont really celebrate much.
plus, i think dad would be out of town.
i doubt he even remembers my birthday :\

heart indie

2008-09-23T00:01:00.006+08:00

i am in a grumpy mood.
tired and grumpy and kikikakapalapila ( zzz )

my neck is aching i dont know why.
i dont feel like sleeping yet.
i am kinda planning my week.

day spend:
-stella and her hair done.
-fareast with stella,hweeyee and elyn
-gloriajeans with them
-takingvideos for my work
-video end up not use cos im too lazy and thank you ahboon
-did bm
-walked the malay pasarmalam

I thank God today that my church is almost 24/7 open
I thank God that my hair long enough no need extension like other girls
I thank God that some backsliders are coming back

thank you good bye.

(edit: i think i am grumpy cos its independent week = holidays, but tomorrow i still need to go school cos' nxt week hariraya no sch. ): and also no one is actively talking to me on msn. angrygirl.com)

Hi, Today we are travelling to Yang's Desert

2008-09-22T01:03:00.002+08:00

Omgoshz, everything in my house is faulty.
The light in my room, the light in the storeroom.
Even my aircon is always not cooling even when it is on.
It's sucha bad time to have a spoilt aircon becos' the weather is super duper humid ):

The weekend was good and I reflected alot. hehe.

Yesterday I did not blog.
So here's 6 things I thank God for yesterday and today.

Michelle as one of my close friend, who really helped me yesterday
That I am given chances to learn and develop my creative talents in church
For changing me to be a better me as compared to 3 years ago and very much still growing
For having my loveliest Cousins, Ivan/Elgin/Brenda/Justin
That I have a pretty much acceptable height
That I am given chances to do more in the CG

sweetness that took my heart away.

2008-09-20T02:02:00.002+08:00

(: Today was relatively fine.
I am feeling happy in the spirit now after listening to sermon CD 'Faith Leaks' that Wendy got me.
Its really powerful.
Go get a copy from the bookstore (:

Pastor Lia is awesome to max.
She always speaks right to the heart.
And Pastor Lia is preaching this weekend!!!
Excited mama

So like Hweeyee, from this entry onwards, daily I would blog about at least 2 things I wanna thank God about. Perhaps you have no idea, but thanksgiving allows spiritual life to go to a whole new level (:

Just got reminded that few days ago this week, Huiqi asked me about loving people.
I referred back to Hinds' Feet on High Places, and I found these precious sentences I wanna shareeeeeeeee! (:

" Love and Pain go together, for a time at least. If you would know Love, you must know pain too."

" When the seed of Love in your heart is ready to bloom, you will be loved in return."
( This i find it so true, becos' it would mean that you have come to a point you are so ready to love, you love wholeheartedly and sincerely. People appreciates and love you in return. This gives courage and faith (: )

"suddeny, a sweetness she had never felt or imagined before tingled through her. It was bittersweet, but the sweetness was the stronger....."It is so happy to love" "

"with a thrill of wonder and delight, that the seed of Love has been planted in her heart. As she thought of it, the same almost intolerable sweetness stole over her, the bittersweet, indefinable but wholly delightful ectasy of a new happiness"

You know, sometimes it just takes a sincere willing heart to be able to love.

My day was fine.
I had drawing in the airport today.
Time passed by really quickly (:
ChngKang is officially one of my favourite lecturer (:
He is funny man.

After drawing, we hung around, ate Popeyes and took photos and footages for IS.
I visited Candy Empire and bought a chocolate for myself and saw Reese and got it for Hweeyee! (: (:

We took more photos and headed to Cityhall.
Alvin, Zhouzhou and Shenxiao bought some stuffz while Selena and me slacked around and window shopped.

I've tons of funny video I am gonna post slowly...
Alvin is so gonna killlllllll me.
Now I now he reads this space. Tskzzzz

I've so much in my mind.
I feel for many people around me.
i love them thats why i feel for them.
you know, sometimes you think you lack nothing in life.
but the truth is you are missing out on the biggest and most important thing in life.

hmmm.
Anyhow, I thank God today:
-For my awesome fantastic only and first church.
-For my Pastors who sacrificed so much and build this church.
-For God's grace and love that has been on me the past 3 years.

Now, here's some photos to brighten up my entry (:
Meet my classmates (:
*boy with long long hair= alvin
*girl with hair tied up= shenxiao
*girl in cap= zhouzhou
*girl in green hairband= selena
*boy in cardigan= ahboon

and you and you out there.
I love you you and you.
I miss my cousin and fx

(p.s/ by the way gloria jeans at raffles city shopping mall 2-7pm iceblended $3 only )

past, life, future

2008-09-19T01:44:00.004+08:00

We sat by the steps of stairs under the moonlight and talked about life.
About past, about people, about the future.
It was a good evening spent with Liwen (:

Girl, I'll see you this Sat ahhhh! (:
Super full, we ate Shoduko ( i think thats how you spell it? ) pasta and icecream at Swenson's.
Me feel super duper duper fat now.
Lucky next week is independent week.

I promise I'll go jogging at least 2 times.
Stamp chop confirm.

On my way to school Zelia text me and made my day with good news (:
Caryn is super nonsense to max and we had championship photos up in facebook now.

I got really grumpy as I reached school.
My teacher remembered me suddenly being his student last year.
He didnt even recognise me last week.
Why?
Because last year, during his first lesson I was late.
Now, what a way to be remembered...

The weather is SO humid, I am feeling so irritated all the time.
Easily irritable y'knw the feeling.
And people just had to come irritate me.

I end up taking a nap instead of working on my SketchUp.

): The aircon is on now but its still soooooooo warm.
I think I'm gonna die of heat stroke soon.
GRRRRRRRR.
I hate perspiring like pig.

I dont feel like going drawing lesson at Airport tml ):
But i'll go. I will.
I must la. aiyo.

goodbye lahhhhhhh

eat, sleep, love, play, work. repeat

2008-09-17T23:30:00.002+08:00

(: Copeland's music is naise.
Naise= Nice.
Thanks to Chong Ivan I am pronouncing it that way now as well. Tskkkz

Lets see.
Things I have done recently:

- Attended Cooooool H.E. Zanela Makina Service (:
- Celebrated Elyn's 19th (photos laterssssss)
- Rubbing my eyes more often than ever
- Staying up pretty often to do my work
- Fell asleep in Jane Allen's lesson
- Love Rinnah alot ( still do and always forever will , she is happy with her My Little Pony Present a couple of us shared and got for her. :D )
- Sent my dear cousin Ivan and bestfriend Fx to army ):
- Playing Tic-tac-toe poker on MSN with Chongz
- Freaked out by Rat issue in basement (but not bothering much and still ate my bun today during drawing)
- Found out that Mos Burger's bun very nice leh!
- Visited White Tangerine with Caryn and Zelia and held Uno-Stacko championship'08 and omgosh im sucha loser in uno-stacko
- Revived excitement to doodle and gather designs and whatever in a journal
- Ate loads of fruit loops :D
- Thought of losing weight but not very much working well
- Got upset at my parents for my very low allowance ):
- Realised that birthday is coming very soon

Okay so much nonsense okayz i know.
Life's been quite a routine.
But who says routine aint good?
I have been chionging work often. Hardworking me.com

HAHAHA

Tonight's finally some chillingz for me.
I am looking at my livejournal friendzzzz entries and looking at online shopping stuffz.
WOOOOOOO.

Holga is so cool
I want a Holga Camera to play with.....
Color filter pretty mama.

Rahhhhhhhh.
I feel so broke.
I would not be able to own one ):

Oh and by the way, I am still looking for a new big bag.
Versatile and Nice looking.
Hahahaha.
I thought of getting crumpler, but its really abit too casual for me and my clothings.
Roar, so if you see nice bags, (not too ex) let me know thank you.

Happy me, i have been saving quite abit on accesories cos I make them instead.
(: (: (:

Random entry
chaochao. till then

paint rainbows and doves

2008-09-11T09:30:00.019+08:00

Its funny how when you are working you wanna study.
And when you are studying you wanna work.
I officially declare that, me is quite broke.

I have been able to cope financially the past few month's on my past pay.
Daddy daddy aint giving me my allowance yet. Tskkk.
I need to spend wisely ! Ahhh.
That means lesser shopping Xinjie.
Although Selena calls me 'Cheapskate girl' (basically it means i know where are great bargains etc, which she is one too).

School's starting at 2pm today, and I thought I should blog abit since I am up earlier than I wanted to, thanks to Mommy's Karaoke music.
Add some photos here, add some life.

My weeks has been really tight and busy.
I am pretty tired.
I fall asleep SO easily.
My bus rides... the moment i hit my sack...
Usually on the bed before falling asleep, I can still reflect and think of many and a zillion things that happened during the day, or about people and all.
But lately? The moment I am lying there, in less than 2 mins, I am fast sound asleep.

Whatever it is, I know I need to deal with this.
To juggle well and all.
Cos' I know if I wanna grow more, I'll NEVER get slacker but busier. Haha.

I have started to be more thankful for things in my life more than ever lately.
My family, church, school, friends.
I mean, if you know me well enough, I am someone who regards relationships as a very important part of my life.
Regardless of family or friends, I love people I love alot.
And I thank God so much for these people in my life.

E2 is amazing, its gonna be awesome, we gonna grow.
20 is easy.each other.

Oh by the way, RedHotTue was good (:
We had many many new friends (:
So haaaaaaaarrrrrrrr-pie okay! (:
It was great to see Adri bring so many friends again, EV queen totally.
I miss bringing truckloads of friends to church!
I should, i shall, i will ....

I remember having loads of marshmallows (: Happy happy.
And getting terrible stomachache becos' I ate half cooked satays.
I love Satays !
Xinjie is still Xinjie, I love food and food adores me. Hahahahah.
Tomorrow's there is yet another buffet party to attend.

This Saturday it's Rinnah, Adri and Elyn's birthday! (:
Rinnah love love :D
My dream 3 years ago shall come to pass this year, or the most early next year.
Xinjie shall be a great support.
Expand our territory.
Stretch in capacity.
Increase in love for others.
You you and you, we will run side by side, picking each other up when we tumble and fall (:
This journey aint perfect, aint that easy, but we'll tide through it all with

Side track a little, I think people need to learn to respect people.
Everyone's life is different.
Doesnt mean that yours aint the same, you mock or tease others.
Or look at them indifferently..

Now now, time for some photos and I'll go wash up and prepare to go collect my specs, and then make my way to school earlier to do some work.

Photos are in no sequence.
I am just throwing everything in.

Love.Live.Pray

2008-09-09T11:22:00.003+08:00

hello world! Imma in class right now, PPD now and Jane is briefing us about school issues..
I feel like imma floating in space.
Spent quite some time doing my colour chart last night and completed it but it looks kinda messy and all still :(
typing this entry using the iPodtouch ain't very easy, haha
there's the redhottuesday event later on and I foresee myself KOing at the end of today.
I feel like sleeping right now, oh man.
school's workload keeps coming, like never ending!
now's really like a time of stretching for me manzzzzz

Oh yeah, recently just made my new pair of specs :) like finally!
Happy girlzzzzzz
2weeks from now its independent week, yay, time to catch up with some sleep and my overdue work!

I wanna sleeeeeeeeeep! The whole amosphere in the class is quite dead, everyone hasn't had much rest lately i guess
Mooncake festival is round the corner and I have yet to get my hands on any of those yummy snowskin chic mooncakes... Hehehe

My dear cousin Ivan is entering the army next Monday :(
hopefully he will eventually get 8-5!
the good flen FX is entering on the same day too ,rawrrrr

I had a good lunch with Elyn yesterday and we kinda had some heart to heart talk.

A random thought;
I realize something abt people that it is a norm that we are generally quite judgemental beings
we judge things, people almost anything and everything.
We oftenly have a certain conception of people and things before we really know better
it's really funny how the human's mind works.

Lesson has just ended, break for lunch now.
tata outta here now.
Till then!

you're the love of my life

2008-09-07T01:32:00.002+08:00

Hello world, I am finally back to this space.
Taking some time to chillpillz before getting all hectic again.
I am actually quite tired right now. zzz.

Let's see.
Life's been fine fine (:
I have been quite thoughtful today. Many things going through my mind.
Majority pretty much of self-reflection and such I suppose.

Today's service was great.
It's pretty much like one of the discipleship class I had with Pastor How when we watch Lions for Lambs. About our values in life, anchoring, knowing what we want to do in life.
The desires and opportunities that would come our way, dealing with pressures and influence of people and life.
Sometimes it really isnt about what we want aint it?
Give a thought to that... uhmmm...

Rightttt, and today I have came to realisation after listening to some conversations and sharings from people, and perhaps God has shown it to me that, really, you me I we, really aint perfect.
I look and tried searching myself on the inside and I was struggling and giving myself excuses for certain things I dont really do well, or being nice etc. Aint too pretty on the inside I realised...

Sometimes I thought I am quite a nice person already, well or at least trying to be better for now. But really, come to think of it, I have changed a little only, not too much.
Perhaps a whole load to others, but coming in conclusion to self reflection, personally I thought there's so much more room for myself to change and grow.

Hahahha. So much self thoughts huh.
It's good thoughts I suppose. I mean, I dont emo or whatsoever over it (:
Since I have no idea when have I stopped that whole emo-season. haha.

Wendy said the other day I use to emo once in a white moon!
(catch it? no?)

Let's see whats up lately, class chalet was last week. It was crazy willy wally. But well it's over and back to burying head into piles of catridge papers, pens pencils paint. all the P's .

We celebrated Jeremy's 21st last week too.
E2 went excursion to Evi's place on Thursday night. Haha!
Recently I cant remember which day was it, we had OpsGeneralTraining too, it was refreshing for the mind too (: Winning team ! :D
I remember myself visiting Liwen too (:
Also, went to stock up stocks with Elyn and bought ckOneSummerrrrrrrr.
I just made a new belt toooooo! (:
Happy girl, there's one more yet to be made. Woohoohoo.
It was BK's birthday yesterday (now it's sun 2.12am) so happy belated birthday BK.
I've embarrased myself on your birthday, but I have made things better by being such a good help okay! hahahah

I have loads of photos posted up on facebook.
I am too lazy to post here lehhh.

Elyn was webcamming with me and she fell aslp right infront of the cam.
Hahaaaaaaa. Screenshot, I can blackmail her next time already!

(: I am outta here now.
And I love Rinnah very much (:
She hugged me before I left earlier and said "xinjie, I want you to play with me tomorrow!"
heee hee heee. happy gurlzzzzz.

lubx.

drowning in noise, eraser dust, pencils and paint

2008-08-28T14:49:00.002+08:00

now now, i am struggling to focus on my work.
blasting my own music , fighting against mommy's karaoke hokkien songs.
i am re-doing my 2D stuff its killing me.
class chalet tonight, i think we gonna do some work and then have a bit of fun.
the bbq's tomorrow.
i am gonna get so fat.
birthday buffet with chan tomorrow and the bbq.
right right xinjie.
where is your jogging plan for this independent week?
sheesh.
i ended up eating sunsweet prunes and going to the toilet super often.
maybe it helps to keep myself healthy . hahahahah
so much information.
xinjie talks gibberish.
i am out to do work.

(Untitled Nonsense)

2008-08-21T21:42:00.002+08:00

One more day of school tomorrow and next week it's independent week.
Might probably not appear on Tuesday, we'll see about that.
The Library thing shouldnt be that important right?

Independent week, I shall touch up and finish up my work.
I'll do up a Post-it note of 'To-dos' for school later.

I just had my dinner, i added too much water to my instant duck noodles.
It was bland and not very satisfying ):

Let's see whats up lately.
I'll be finishing up slides later on.
This Saturday there's a party to attend.
This Sunday there's a birthday celebration :D
Next week there is no school (well kinda)
Wednesday need to go back school, tuesday too but tentative (dont care)
Friday (i think?) there's class chalet.
Sunday there's Pst Tan coming.

And monday, back to school.
Wow, quite exciting.
Hahahaha.

Alrights. I have photos but I am very lazy to upload.
So forget it. I might just upload on Facebook.
Alrights
Tatata.

& By the way, powerhouse has been fantabulous.
Last day tml, if you have not gone for any, GO !!!!

Wilbert, my new friend

2008-08-16T00:38:00.006+08:00

(: I am a happy proud owner of my new toy Wilbert!
It is the new robot'car'mera :D
the 3D proj due on Monday was settled today after lessons.
Hurray, it was good working hard with Nes and ShenXiao (:
(Ignore my stupid bangs. its always out of place)

Today was good, had drawing and crapped a whole load with Nes and Ivan.
Huiyun and I had classic moments running to Soyabean stall from school->7eleven->the stall.
Haha, we explored the school a little and got freaked out and she was smart enough to lead us back.

During lunch, we went to play bishibashi and all the crap and ate Macs.
Being happy filled up people we went to work and did our 3D and all. (:

I had an awesome time with E2 and Wendily,Chloe Etc earlier (:
Chilling out at Macs and I had happy meal.
The toy was awful tho.

I conclude that happy meal is quite healthy i would eat them the next time i go macs.
The proportion is smaller too!

Okay, now now, 3D is off my list, I am gonna conquer 2D.
But i pretty much like it so its fine (:

Alright off now to get some work done again.

Work work work

3D is a monster

2008-08-14T21:48:00.002+08:00

When you mention '3D' to any Lasalle Foundation Year student,
you would probably hear not very pleasant comments and all.

I just shouted "OKAY WORK WORK WORK" to myself and I am gonna do so after this entry.
Mom and Dad just headed out to eat Frog Legs Porridge leaving me at home ):

My daily school essentials to keep me sane during little breaks:
Strawberry Pocky and a bottle of Wintermelon Tea or Pinkdolphin (:
& a few dosage of Selena's Eclipse Spearmint Candy.
She's the SWEETgirl (: hee hee. And we'll all have fresh breath. Haa.

So now I am off to do work, and I'll prove to Nes im a hardworking girl.
(: I love my classmates pretty much.
Thank you (Selena,Nes,Alvin,Huiyun,Ahboon,Questal,Ivan,Hong)
They make things easier and less tense in school.

Work time with a bottle of yakult(:

sucked into it, not

2008-08-13T23:12:00.003+08:00

School has been draining me quite a bit.
I've been rather grumpy these few evenings.
Sorry to my classmates who have to suffer grumpy and my angry tones.

Alvin has been suffering the most I suppose, but being a nice boy he is (eh not bad i praise you, dont even know if you're reading this shitz) , he still tries so much to make us laugh.
Thanks alot man boy.

And I think when I gets abit too stressed up doing 3D, i start to talk gibberish and nonsense.
I sound weird, I sound angry, I sound sad, I sound like im gonna cry, or I sound like I am laughing insanely. Extreme emotions.
Not very very good, it makes me even more tired at the end of the day.

Loads of soya and stuff for me today.
Beancurd, Soya bean milk, Egg Tart and chicken rice.
All around the corner's of lovely Lasalle, rightttt.

Seriously, I am okay with 2D and drawing and all.
Have been able to cope with EVERYTHING except 3D.
I am quite proud of myself.
I didnt like 3D, I still dont.

Arghhhhhh. 3D 3D 3D *pulls hair.

I am suppose to be doing some work now but I am not.
Getting some files sent over to Selena thanks to the missing thumpdrive :\

Many thoughts in my mind lately.
Much love much concern, I feel heavy on the inside sometimes.
I wish I could hug someone and tell them, there's more to life.

You know, sometimes we do things wrong in life even when we know its wrong.
And later, we realise our craps, we change, we repent, we try to conform to the right ways.
Come back real into this world, a better kid, a better person, and fighting not to be sucked into the whole black hole of nonsense again.
It's the worse when we step into all the mess again and getting ourselves bruised and crying buckets of tears like a little child who scraped his knee.
Choices we make affects a whole load of things.
Sometimes its really about being real, and simple.
Seeing things simply makes it more beautiful sometimes.
How real, and how true are you to the people around you?

Sometimes I wonder a bit too much.
But its good to have such thoughts at times.

I am tired, I think i'll go sleep soon.
(w/o much work done, bravo)
(( p.s/ but this is the first night i've nt done much work since school started okay! ))

anyhow whatever,
i still love school.
i love life the way it is although i wonder a whole load of things at times.

and you?

your wife my best friend

2008-08-10T00:34:00.002+08:00

happy birthday singapore.

and thank you ericchenzxzxz for lending me your wife dslr (:

thank you for trusting and believing in me to lend me your wife.
hahahaha.

me is too much a lousy planner to plan and save up for my own dslr.
i need a new laptop first. this laptop is getting silly sometimes.

ok goodbye now. time to do homework.
im a good student.

it's the way, always love

2008-08-09T00:50:00.003+08:00

Friday night, finally lesser tension.
I am a very tired Xinjie sitting here infront of this super warm laptop now.

Let's see, Orientation last week on Thu was crap.
Seriously, damn crappy, we didnt get to know each other and whatsoever.
Only until Monday when sch started we started to break the ice and spoke to each other.

Things are getting better, I am coping much better tis time round than last year.

The class is interesting, there's my intersting bunch of crazy friends, some really quiet nice people and some really noisy naggy people.

School work is pretty much the same stuff, adding on and on, but im clearing one by one.

FOP on Friday was gooooooood (: Saturday I ushered and was quite tired as in the morning there was BMT and I helped out too.
But I've graduated from BMT :D:D
In great spirits, I went to the Cozycot flea to shop, bought 1 high waisted,1belt and 2 tops (:
harrrrrrrrrr-pee girl.

Glad that my sandals ordered from Go Jane are here! (: Just that my gladiators was outta stock .

Today there was some orientation finale in school, the group hang around and stayed back to eat the buffet blabla, it was good food.
Headed to Zee's house after which and ate even more, sushi,cocktail,hotdogs,pasta blabla. Super alot.
I feel super fat now and i should head to the gym soon.
Now, time time, i'll find time.

Yay, Eric's gonna lend me his DSLR, perfecto.
I can now practise more and improve on my skills (technical things blabla)

Here's some photos of the classmates and me taken today (:
Selena and Huiyun!

School, Back.

2008-08-07T00:05:00.002+08:00

School's back again.

Things has been fine, work is coming in again but this time definitely not piling up.
I have been clearing bit by bit everyday and I am quite proud of myself.

Trying to juggle well between projs and other things in life.
(: Xinjie's so gonna make it this time.
I got to you see...
Otherwise...

(tsk, I dont wish to imagine or think about it)

Okay, I'll update more over the weekend.

Now when some of my classmates are struggling with research, here I am blogging.
How can!
Laziness gets me no where.

And, I am so disappointed with my hairdresser today ):

Oh and things I need to remember to blog about next entry:

-whatever photos i have not loaded
-school and new friends
-certain irritating teacher
-my hair highlight was overcharged ):
-fop was good. i ushered too.
-fop night1 i fell down

Okay lets talk more next time people.
Till then.

What a random entry

I'll Move On

2008-07-28T09:08:00.001+08:00

A very beautiful song to start off my day (:
I was introduced to this song recently.

I'll Move On

This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me through
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain
Looking back I've come so far and I want to carry on

Take a step a little time it's alright
Even through this rain
I want to smile again

Don't hold back now
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me thru'
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am Here I am
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on

(: It's nice. You can hear it on my Minipod on the right. heh (:

We do life together.

2008-07-28T01:40:00.003+08:00

Life aint a bed of roses.
It's really about how we fight, how convicted we are.

I am much lifted after some talk.
And really pouring out everything inside me and seeking solutions.

It's about building dreams, doing life together.
You you you, i am glad you are on the same track as me.
I am glad we are walking side by side, holding on to each other as we tumble and fall at times.
You you you, you might not be walking the same road as me now,
but i know you would one day.
For God is bigger than problems.
He is bigger than selfishness.
He is bigger than everything.

Above everything, He rules over them.

So today, if you are trying to ruin situations, think twice (:
Devil gonna flee and back away.

I have mighty people right beside me, I have mighty almighty Him (:
Try us.

The spirit is so encouraged.

thank You (:

Two more days @ work, i'll miss chicsean .

Take Hold of Everything.

2008-07-27T23:25:00.002+08:00

The pimple on the corner of my lip is making me irritated.
The ants on my table that keeps crawling onto my fingers and laptop is irritating me too.
Goodness, I have no idea where they appeared from.
I just ate un-chilled MEIJI Strawberry Yoghurt.
Quite sad , quite disappointed cos' its not chilled.
The fridge at home aint fixed.
No cold stuff for me.

I feel like going for a jog now. but its already 12.09am.
I need to let go some weight of myself.
Physically and in thoughts.

My heart feels heavy.
There are just certain things I wish I understand.

& God I pray you allow me to see the things unseen and reveal to me things to me.

Not a very good night.

Things will get better tomorrow.
I'll pray.

A Time for Everything.

2008-07-27T02:01:00.002+08:00

Haha, just realised that I haven't blogged since Wednesday.
(: So I thought I would might as well blog a little since I am still awake tho its already 2am.
After this entry, I guess I would head to bed.

I have quite a number of photos in my camera right now.
-Benny's sleeping face, Peishan's 20th at B&J@Dempsey Hill.
I will update them soon!
Life's good I would still say.

I dont really know what to blog, so this entry might be pretty much a messy one.
Thoughts overflowing that is not processed properly, considering that I am quite tired.
Heh(:
Eli and I came to realise today that-
E2 girls all quite pretty and likes to dress up leh! (Ahems)
Hahaha, but well well, the girls in church are all very pretty.
All of us look so good (:
Flowing from the top. Mwahaha.

Let's see, what have I been up to...
Work, looking forward to school, seeking revelations after revelations from God,
supper with sis&co. , praying and seeing things happening in the 4D, and thinking quite abit about my desires, dreams, ideas and life.

The other day, the sis and Melissa my colleague was talking about ol'school days.
Autograph books (remember all the "roses are red i am cool so are you, fav friend, fav singer, fav food, blood type, dont tear my pages or i fine you) ? , and the countries' eraser game (flick and flip), and hopscotch and starfish (my fav. apparently)
Hehe, its all so cool.
I miss ol'school days!

Who wanna play with me Starfish!! :D:D
(2,4,6,8 in out in step.)

Peishan's birthday yesterday and Grismond's was 2 days before hers.
So happy birthday to both of you (:
Hehe, I am glad Peishan had a great time yesterday at b&j@dempsey.
We had fun eating icecream, taking photos and enjoying good music.
Environment, company and food all falls nicely into place.

I like jazz music! :D

(: During service today, a thought came to me.
There is a time for everything.
Many times we always are so anxious and we rush through things.
Sometimes there are things around us that are precious and beautiful that we fail to take note of as well rush through life, not slowing down to look around.
Sometimes we want and demand for things to happen during wrong times.
Things would definitely only fall into place nicely when we allow God to decide what to do with our time.

Through years in church there are just times of joy, times of tears. Times when people come into my life and got really close to me, times when people step away and walk out, leave. There is always time when we rejoice, merry but times when we feel down, sometimes some of our dreams tarry, times we work hard together and times we dream together and have our fair share of rest. It is beautiful to have you and you beside me.
We do life together. Locking arms together knowing we are one big family and army of God.
God put us altogether for a purpose and reason isnt it?

School is starting on the 4th.
I am excited yet really this is the time I rely on God for strength and courage.
There's a lot of fear after much has gone through in my education.
I need to start seeing things happening to me in my education in the 4D.
I will get my degree (:

I am thankful for the many many things in my life.

I am sleepy now and I was pretty much treated too much like a boy during supper early ):

Off to bed.

Precious Love

2008-07-23T10:07:00.002+08:00

What is precious to you today?
What are your 5 loaves and 2 fishes that you can offer to God?

To give wholly to Him.
Surrender every area of your life to Him.
EVERY AREA.
How much are you willing to give?

As I begin to step close, being more willing and giving Him nothing but a humble heart.
He moulds me like a clay, He is my Potter (:

I cant deny how real this can get.
That- when you do all the above-
the desires of YOUR heart is the desires that HE holds on to as well.
He has worked things out in my life for me.
I have experienced, witness it myself.
Just as I step out with faith, things awesome are happening in my life already (:

BMT was fantabulous.
Living day by day by His revelations.
(: I am a jolly girl.

Today, we all want our CG/Team/Church to grow.
Let's grow ourselves stronger before everything else (:

Amazing You are.

Your Call on My Life took Me On

2008-07-22T12:22:00.002+08:00

I am at work now, very sleepy.
Waiting for lunch... (:

Out of no reason I was suddenly humming "God of my Forever"
(: it's sucha song of conviction and love (:

GOD OF MY YOUTH I REMEMBER
YOUR CALL ON MY LIFE TOOK ME O'ER
YOUR LOVE HAS SEEN ME THROUGH ALL MY DAYS
I STAND HERE BY YOUR GRACE

ON THIS ALTAR I'VE WRITTEN MY LIFE
TELLS OF THE STORY I HAVE WITH YOU MY LORD
I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW

GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I'M WITH YOU
MY LIFE IS SAVED WITH A PRICE
YOUR SACRIFICE REDEEMED MY SOUL

GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I WILL SING
MY GREATEST HONOR WILL ALWAYS BE
TO SERVE MY LORD AND KING

GOD OF MY LIFE I'VE SURRENDERED
MY HEART FINDS ITS REST IN YOUR WORD
PRAISES WILL NOT BE ENOUGH TO SHOW
HOW MY LOVE FOR YOU HAS GROWN

NOTHING MATTERS WHEN YOU'RE HERE WITH ME
IN THE END JUST TO HEAR YOU SAY “WELL DONE”
BOWING BEFORE YOUR THRONE

FOREVER AND EVER
JESUS YOU ALONE IN GLORY REIGN
FOREVER AND EVER
WITH YOU I WALK THIS NARROW WAY

Would I take that and go?

2008-07-22T02:51:00.002+08:00

A very good friend asked me a question yesterday.
I was quick and gave a rather immediate answer.
But to ponder now and think over it again, I think my answer would still be the same.

you are very special.
you are you are. really.

i am sure many would support my answer to the question.
for His ways are bigger.
my desires are close to Him as well, & i trust in that.

i just recalled how i asked that very good friend something a few weeks ago too.
between this and that certain things which would be chosen.
no answer was given.
but issues has been given, situations has happened.
let's see how it goes.
i believe you will make the best choice out of whats given.

(:

Hold me Close

2008-07-22T02:38:00.002+08:00

So funny, just few minutes ago I was reading my old blog.

Things have changed so much since.
For the better of cos'
I was such a silly girl in the past.
But well well, all those silliness made me grew didnt they?

I am thinking of teaching tuition when school starts.
Still need some pocket money and allowance for myself.
Hmmm. Maybe I can teach some art and chinese.
Lobangs?

My eyelids are heavy now...
I am getting sleepy yawning away.

CG today was postponed ):
Hope Wednesday would be good for everyone!

It's Lucinda and Krystal's birthday (:
Happy birthday to both you! :D:D

I am craving Koi right now (x
Shall get them tomorrow.

I am confused by certain things and certain people.
Tskzzzzzz.

Flu is bad.

What a ranting post.

Good night &,
you're special.

Glory. Honour

2008-07-19T12:08:00.003+08:00

It's been long since I have Saturday mornings, sitting by my working desk,
typing away here on my blog, having after thoughts of a great event.
Church builder service was definitely awesome to the max.
Through out the whole service,
I was just so captured and overwhelmed by how amazing God has been in my life.
Upon all my ups and downs these 3 years about, 2months 9 days-
He has been so so faithful.
So gracious and filled with mercy.

I will never forget that day, I made my promise to Him that I, will never forsake Him.
For He spoke that day that words-
"My girl, I will never forsake you, I've died for you because I love you. How about you?"
It's convictions that kept me going.
Truly, He is the King of Glory.

How do I put this?
My spirit felt so lifted.
Everything is possible!

I stay faithful, I am convicted, He is able.
I am believing, I dont know if you are.
I am running, will you run with me?
I might dream even more and higher thoughts, cos' I know He is able.
So I dare. do you?
(: What are the desires of my heart?
From Now, to the near future.
1. To wholly give to you every area of my life.
For gold and silver I have none, but here I am (:
2. E2- 25 25 25! maybe even 30.
Cos I saw E2 in my 4D filling up one and a half row in the centre section!
3. Im gonna be a CGL! (:
4. My PapaMama, Gonggong and Ahma are coming (:
And know what? Not just coming, but loving God.
5. Myself to be a pillar in church, not just a pillar but a STRONG pillar!
Carrying burdens of Pastors and Leaders (:
6. I will finish my degree in Lasalle (Definitely ok!)
7. I'm gonna be successful to glorify Him, to be able to influence.

Yeah I know along the way, these might tarry, I may face difficulties.
But deep in my heart, and not so deep within, I will always know that-
Through storms and raging seas, Im never alone (:

I am so lifted! (:
& definitely believe that God is helping me alongside while I do things in/for CG (:
I am beginning to be more loving :D
Haha, its good its good.

It's not just how I can serve Him and He sees me now.
But how He loves me and holds my desires and dreams close too.
This is just so encouraging.

2 Timothy 1:12
"For this reason I also suffer these things; nevertheless I am not ashamed,
for I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep what I have committed to Him until that Day."

The day I get baptised in water, this shall be my life verse (:

(: Gonna get going and settle somethings before heading to church for prayer meeting.
I really love E2. Crazy bunch, but things gonna happen.
We just need that spark now.
P.U.S.H

I really love life (:

OH YA OH YA.
Also,

Very much with love and thanksgiving to God for both of you-
Happy 21st Birthday Roy! & Happy 18th Birthday Aaron (cheong) !
A big 21st stepping into adulthood and a very lovely 18th maybe 1 foot into adulthood.

(: